starwood was awesome
all the usual stress for someone with the kind of social anxiety that I have but it was great anyway. now I'm back sitting at my desk - inside - air conditioned - surrounded by walls - trying to sit still - and I feel like a caged animal.
Greg and I listened to CDs all the way home. This morning I got in my car to come to work. Drove a ways and turned on the radio. I had been out of touch for only a week with no real worries beyond my own personal tweaks. The first thing I heard was a BBC reporter describing the mangled body of a child in the middle east somewhere. The shock was overwhelming. I can't remember what country it was in. then more descriptions of war and disaster. then environmental collapse. it was too much. After a few minutes I had to turn the radio off and I was sobbing uncontrollably. I had to sit outside in my car until my eyes cleared.
Greg and I listened to CDs all the way home. This morning I got in my car to come to work. Drove a ways and turned on the radio. I had been out of touch for only a week with no real worries beyond my own personal tweaks. The first thing I heard was a BBC reporter describing the mangled body of a child in the middle east somewhere. The shock was overwhelming. I can't remember what country it was in. then more descriptions of war and disaster. then environmental collapse. it was too much. After a few minutes I had to turn the radio off and I was sobbing uncontrollably. I had to sit outside in my car until my eyes cleared.