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I kind of feel like a waste of space today. I did absolutely nothing. nothing I tell you.
except picked up my daddy's truck that I get to drive for the next week. scary. it's huge.
I started deleting a lot of old locked posts. actually, mostly the most recent ones. I've decided that I'm completely insane. hence my grounds for deletion. keeping my insanity to myself seems like a better idea.
I've found myself listening to a lot of music that pisses me off lately. music I like, but that pisses me off. it seems like a semi-self destructive past time. intentional anger kind of. funny I don't just shut the shit off isn't it? but I don't.
I know I don't make a lot of sense to people. I speak in metaphores and symbolism. well, use symbolism. I don't think it's possible to speak in symbolism, to be gramatically correct. I kind of like people not understanding it though. you have to decipher it to understand. typically anyway. I dunno. making sense of anything I say doesn't seem very possible lately. oh well.
ummm... country music? like, dislike? I can't decide. used to hate. now some songs are okay.
I'm pretty much disgusted with everything about myself. but that's a topic for, well, not here. somewhere else I guess.
I had something usefull to say when I began to post this. I really did. I just kinda lost it though.
basically, I kind of want to delete everything in here, but that may involve too much effort. I might just make a new one.
maybe.
peace
except picked up my daddy's truck that I get to drive for the next week. scary. it's huge.
I started deleting a lot of old locked posts. actually, mostly the most recent ones. I've decided that I'm completely insane. hence my grounds for deletion. keeping my insanity to myself seems like a better idea.
I've found myself listening to a lot of music that pisses me off lately. music I like, but that pisses me off. it seems like a semi-self destructive past time. intentional anger kind of. funny I don't just shut the shit off isn't it? but I don't.
I know I don't make a lot of sense to people. I speak in metaphores and symbolism. well, use symbolism. I don't think it's possible to speak in symbolism, to be gramatically correct. I kind of like people not understanding it though. you have to decipher it to understand. typically anyway. I dunno. making sense of anything I say doesn't seem very possible lately. oh well.
ummm... country music? like, dislike? I can't decide. used to hate. now some songs are okay.
I'm pretty much disgusted with everything about myself. but that's a topic for, well, not here. somewhere else I guess.
I had something usefull to say when I began to post this. I really did. I just kinda lost it though.
basically, I kind of want to delete everything in here, but that may involve too much effort. I might just make a new one.
maybe.
peace