Call me fucking alexander...
So yeah yesterday I I had one of those terrible horrible no good very bad days. To the extreme. I skipped orchestra to rage about the unfairness of life in my car. Which is ironic because really at the same time even though I was falling apart I was quite happy I do now have a car at school to go to. But yeah. it was noooo fun. School should not be so stressful. We are supposed to like learning. i do. I used to. Until I met vitus and her tests and french drama where we act out finding flowers in a parking lot and pre calc (which is evil, so i can only imagine what is next year if this is pre evil.) and any letters below a B. And all state orchestras that meet for 8 hours a day the weekend before finals. And family commitments. And the violin in general. And viola now too. Not to mention the many strenous things that go along with life and being an adolescent as they like to say. life= not my favorite thing right now. But today was better. I found out even if I bomb (and i mean very lowest grade possible) the chem final I still can't get a D! Funny that that is actually reassuring to me. And I got my materials all set up and the papers picked out for my finals review packets I'm making. And I got to dress up like a hermit man from the 18 hundreds with sweet no lense glasses. Ah IHS is wonderful haha. And I brought my tea to school, and made it from civic to the stu gov room in like under 5 minutes... a miracle. So this day was much better then yesterday. But I should stop procrastinating, go for my run, and then i can start studying. I have a week and 2 days till chem. So now I'm just blah. Numb i guess after the confusion of freaking out yesterday, mixed with the actual okayness of today. And it's sunny out. Pray/hope/wish/meditate/telepathically raise my IQ...whatever religion you wanna go with... for my finals please please please.