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This whole end of school thing is just draining me. I'm just burnt out. I've thought I was burnt out before, but I had no idea. And yet there's still so much more to get done this term.
I feel like everywhere I turn, there's still something stressing me out. I've got midterms, papers, and readings along with a capstone paper coming up. When I take a break from work it's still all there so I don't really get relaxed. When I'm with Josh we are constantly talking about his job possibilities. If it's not his upcoming interviews, it's about possible locations, or finances. Then there's my job search which I can't start and which feels doomed in the current economy. And of course, my dad is still sick. He's doing well; his surgery went well and he's meeting with his oncologist this week. I want to be attentive, but it's hard to focus on work and get it done if my mind is elsewhere so I end up forcing myself to remove it from my mind. Then I end up feeling guilty for it - particularly because my sister is dealing with it everyday.
And all of this is there... all of the time.
Don't get me wrong, I'm looking forward to what is coming. I want to graduate, I want to move and follow Josh, and I can't wait to do something with my life....... it just all seems in sight but out of reach right now.
I feel like everywhere I turn, there's still something stressing me out. I've got midterms, papers, and readings along with a capstone paper coming up. When I take a break from work it's still all there so I don't really get relaxed. When I'm with Josh we are constantly talking about his job possibilities. If it's not his upcoming interviews, it's about possible locations, or finances. Then there's my job search which I can't start and which feels doomed in the current economy. And of course, my dad is still sick. He's doing well; his surgery went well and he's meeting with his oncologist this week. I want to be attentive, but it's hard to focus on work and get it done if my mind is elsewhere so I end up forcing myself to remove it from my mind. Then I end up feeling guilty for it - particularly because my sister is dealing with it everyday.
And all of this is there... all of the time.
Don't get me wrong, I'm looking forward to what is coming. I want to graduate, I want to move and follow Josh, and I can't wait to do something with my life....... it just all seems in sight but out of reach right now.