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Oh man i am in a really good mood right now. :) I had such a fun night last night. Cept for when my mom caught me drunk but oh well. So uhm ya went to jonathans, cant really say that i saw much of him tho. lol. But so ya spent most of the night with Keenan that was really nice. He and I are going to the movies tonight and that also makes me happy. But so ya, i havent gotten toasted in a really long time so kayla and i had a blast! Shes an awesome girl. I also loved seeing kirky. :) i love him.
Ya even along with all the good things about my day i have so much on my mind right now. It totally sucks hearing all the things that lance has/is doing and saying about me. It really hurts my feelings bc i honestly try hard to be nice to him and keep that friendship but, i just hear about things. And it makes me sad to know that i held him so close to my heart and i never really meant that to him. And what he did while we were tg. That totally sucks, i thought i could trust him. I guess thought would be the biggest peice of that. But it makes it hard, Im so scared of that happening again. How will i ever know if someones feelings are real now? It just is hard. I guess out of all this i have met one good person. But who knows about that. Is funny to blush about a boy again. But like i said, who knows.
Im learning so much about myself through this. Im not as strong as i thoguht that i was. And i really dont know what to do with myself sometimes. But im so happy. And its so nice to breathe. And its good to have friends back in my life that help so much. And its fun when you meet someone and your little heart just races when you think about them. Its funny. But out of all the bad, i have come up with the better end. :)
Ya even along with all the good things about my day i have so much on my mind right now. It totally sucks hearing all the things that lance has/is doing and saying about me. It really hurts my feelings bc i honestly try hard to be nice to him and keep that friendship but, i just hear about things. And it makes me sad to know that i held him so close to my heart and i never really meant that to him. And what he did while we were tg. That totally sucks, i thought i could trust him. I guess thought would be the biggest peice of that. But it makes it hard, Im so scared of that happening again. How will i ever know if someones feelings are real now? It just is hard. I guess out of all this i have met one good person. But who knows about that. Is funny to blush about a boy again. But like i said, who knows.
Im learning so much about myself through this. Im not as strong as i thoguht that i was. And i really dont know what to do with myself sometimes. But im so happy. And its so nice to breathe. And its good to have friends back in my life that help so much. And its fun when you meet someone and your little heart just races when you think about them. Its funny. But out of all the bad, i have come up with the better end. :)