You are the only one who ever got to me.
Wow.
Strange things are happenin' to me, there's no doubt about it. Thanks Randy Newman. Because that accurately captures what I'm feeling.
Survived yesterday with flying colors.
Jay took a half day and came down. Made me dinner (which means I've now seen him twice in one week! Awesome)and we just hung out and talked.
Went for a brief walk, no stars to point out or look at, which made me sad. But it was snowing out, which made it still bright out. Which was kind of nice. And we talked, and talked.
He's about to get very very busy with work, so he probably won't be able to pull this for awhile. But, you know, I was happy to see him, and glad that he could come down and make sure that I was doing okay.
Sure, I'm always going to miss Nates, but it doesn't have to be some sad thing. And I actually found it hard to be sad. I've just been so happy lately, between things going so well and having some new friends, that I honestly almost felt a little guilty for not being more upset?
But that doesn't need to happen.
I can do well, despite the time of the year. I want to do well, I want to move along. Of course things would be different had Nates still been around, and I miss him like crazy. No one will ever come close to being him. But, I don't know if it's just my getting older or what, but I can now accept that this happened to such a wonderful person.
It's been 2 very long years without him...but, oddly enough, I have a feeling that everything is going to be ok.
And I think that Nates helped me to get to this point. I couldn't appreciate him any more or miss him anymore or love him anymore. He did more for me than a lot of people could do in a lifetime, and I think he knows that.
And in all honesty, for once, I actually feel like everything is going to work itself out. :)
Nates 3/19/05
Strange things are happenin' to me, there's no doubt about it. Thanks Randy Newman. Because that accurately captures what I'm feeling.
Survived yesterday with flying colors.
Jay took a half day and came down. Made me dinner (which means I've now seen him twice in one week! Awesome)and we just hung out and talked.
Went for a brief walk, no stars to point out or look at, which made me sad. But it was snowing out, which made it still bright out. Which was kind of nice. And we talked, and talked.
He's about to get very very busy with work, so he probably won't be able to pull this for awhile. But, you know, I was happy to see him, and glad that he could come down and make sure that I was doing okay.
Sure, I'm always going to miss Nates, but it doesn't have to be some sad thing. And I actually found it hard to be sad. I've just been so happy lately, between things going so well and having some new friends, that I honestly almost felt a little guilty for not being more upset?
But that doesn't need to happen.
I can do well, despite the time of the year. I want to do well, I want to move along. Of course things would be different had Nates still been around, and I miss him like crazy. No one will ever come close to being him. But, I don't know if it's just my getting older or what, but I can now accept that this happened to such a wonderful person.
It's been 2 very long years without him...but, oddly enough, I have a feeling that everything is going to be ok.
And I think that Nates helped me to get to this point. I couldn't appreciate him any more or miss him anymore or love him anymore. He did more for me than a lot of people could do in a lifetime, and I think he knows that.
And in all honesty, for once, I actually feel like everything is going to work itself out. :)
Nates 3/19/05