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Sean Jessie Rachel and I went to Rod's tree at 3:00 am, to be there exactly one year after. Sara showed up around 3:20.
Secretly inside, I was hoping that something would happen, that maybe he would appear, or that maybe we would be able to talk to him. I was wondering that his car might drive by and the accident would happen all over again. I thought that there might be a flashback to that night, the medic's carrying him away from his Jetta. I thought I'd get a call from his phone, or a text message.
We sat in the grass, looking at what Rod last saw, for a good ten minutes. 3:26 am had come and gone, and here we are, 365 days later.
I'm not sure if anyone else cried. I know I didn't cry for Rod, I've done that enough in the past year. I missed him, but i didn't cry for him. Sara got up and gave me a 'I miss him too' kiss. Then Rachel and Jessie came over and we shared one of my longest hugs ever. I began to cry. Not the sobbing, 'Why did you leave me Rod?" type of cry. No, this was a loving cry. Here I am with people I care about, mourning for someone I love. And here are my friends with me, sharing my sorrow and taking away some of the pain. The tear's did not stop for sometime. It was a head down looking at my feet silent cry. The four friends that were with me that early morning, those are true friends. And if I am to die tomorrow, I am content that those will be the four crying and hugging next to my tree.
I wish you could've come with us, it was a very special moment
I wanted to share it with you, my very special someone
I love you and everyone I know
Rest In Peace Rod,
It is still all for you
Secretly inside, I was hoping that something would happen, that maybe he would appear, or that maybe we would be able to talk to him. I was wondering that his car might drive by and the accident would happen all over again. I thought that there might be a flashback to that night, the medic's carrying him away from his Jetta. I thought I'd get a call from his phone, or a text message.
We sat in the grass, looking at what Rod last saw, for a good ten minutes. 3:26 am had come and gone, and here we are, 365 days later.
I'm not sure if anyone else cried. I know I didn't cry for Rod, I've done that enough in the past year. I missed him, but i didn't cry for him. Sara got up and gave me a 'I miss him too' kiss. Then Rachel and Jessie came over and we shared one of my longest hugs ever. I began to cry. Not the sobbing, 'Why did you leave me Rod?" type of cry. No, this was a loving cry. Here I am with people I care about, mourning for someone I love. And here are my friends with me, sharing my sorrow and taking away some of the pain. The tear's did not stop for sometime. It was a head down looking at my feet silent cry. The four friends that were with me that early morning, those are true friends. And if I am to die tomorrow, I am content that those will be the four crying and hugging next to my tree.
I wish you could've come with us, it was a very special moment
I wanted to share it with you, my very special someone
I love you and everyone I know
Rest In Peace Rod,
It is still all for you