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I typed up a piece of paper, signed my name at the bottom, and dated it. and this is what it says:
12, July 2006
You are officially giving up on everyone and everything. Everytime you get close to something it is somehow taken away from you, and you are sick of it. Therefore, you're not going to expect anything for any reason, and that way you will never be let down. Life sucks, and nothing good will ever come to you. So you might as well smoke another cigarette, down another can of beer, and cry yourself to sleep because that's all you have going for you.
Karyn Yoak
and i typed up another one....
12, July 2006
Never pick up anymore shifts at work, for anyone, for any reason other than death in the family, death of one of their friends, or death of themselves.
Karyn Yoak
the second one is about the fact that i am tired of working. (p.s. lola just jumped up onto my windowsill and didnt quite make it and fell back down... haha.... i found it humorous.) i'm tired of everyone always calling on me for everything... especially ron. i hate him right now.
the first one is about the fact that i slept with douchnozzle again, and how i hate myself for it. more than i ever expected i would. its about the fact that i'm highly interested in someone else, and one of my friends has also expressed the same interest, so there's no point in my competing because what do i have? nothing.... thats what. this is about the fact that i'm kind of a worthless piece of fat shit..... and i'm not going to deny it anymore.
everytime i get close to getting out of the hole i'm in, i somehow let myself fall back down. i guess i'm just trying to find a way to hold on...
12, July 2006
You are officially giving up on everyone and everything. Everytime you get close to something it is somehow taken away from you, and you are sick of it. Therefore, you're not going to expect anything for any reason, and that way you will never be let down. Life sucks, and nothing good will ever come to you. So you might as well smoke another cigarette, down another can of beer, and cry yourself to sleep because that's all you have going for you.
Karyn Yoak
and i typed up another one....
12, July 2006
Never pick up anymore shifts at work, for anyone, for any reason other than death in the family, death of one of their friends, or death of themselves.
Karyn Yoak
the second one is about the fact that i am tired of working. (p.s. lola just jumped up onto my windowsill and didnt quite make it and fell back down... haha.... i found it humorous.) i'm tired of everyone always calling on me for everything... especially ron. i hate him right now.
the first one is about the fact that i slept with douchnozzle again, and how i hate myself for it. more than i ever expected i would. its about the fact that i'm highly interested in someone else, and one of my friends has also expressed the same interest, so there's no point in my competing because what do i have? nothing.... thats what. this is about the fact that i'm kind of a worthless piece of fat shit..... and i'm not going to deny it anymore.
everytime i get close to getting out of the hole i'm in, i somehow let myself fall back down. i guess i'm just trying to find a way to hold on...