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Well, what's a visit to the 'rents without an ego shattering blow from my mother?!? Why should we break with tradition, right? Good God, and I wonder why I'm a neurotic ball of self doubt.
I mean, seriously, is there anything about me she actually likes, and doesn't just tolerate? I sometimes wonder.
She is an unhappy, uptight, judgemental, woman who focuses WAY too much on her and other's appearance. Which as a grown woman, I know people are shallow, and will judge you on appearances, but still, can we at least try to be civil, and only point things out when it's something that just screams of desperation or something we should be trying to fix, like "Hey, that person looks homeless, the shoes have the soles coming off. We should buy them a new pair." kind of stuff.
I know I'm not responsible for someone else's happiness. But there is something about a mother that makes me revert back to the quiet, submissive, people/mother pleasing 16 year old from long ago when I'm around her.
I can't wait to get back home.
I mean, seriously, is there anything about me she actually likes, and doesn't just tolerate? I sometimes wonder.
She is an unhappy, uptight, judgemental, woman who focuses WAY too much on her and other's appearance. Which as a grown woman, I know people are shallow, and will judge you on appearances, but still, can we at least try to be civil, and only point things out when it's something that just screams of desperation or something we should be trying to fix, like "Hey, that person looks homeless, the shoes have the soles coming off. We should buy them a new pair." kind of stuff.
I know I'm not responsible for someone else's happiness. But there is something about a mother that makes me revert back to the quiet, submissive, people/mother pleasing 16 year old from long ago when I'm around her.
I can't wait to get back home.