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[ktmbass]

I think this might be the hardest thing i'll ever have to do. Im in San Francisco now and cold as hell. Me, Jaymone, Kat and my mom came this morning to check me into my dorm and go around the city for a while. Needless to say i didnt go home with them. When we arived i check in at the main building were i met with Sam East my adviser and he gave me some words of advice while i checked in. After all of that was said in done we made our way over to sutter street to go move me into my dorm. I got here before my room mate did and we checked things out. My dorm is a really nice size and im only sharing it with one other person. The beds are small but will make due. They have a computer lab downstairs in the basement which is were im at right now and its so quiet in here its deadly. After my mom and jaymone left i got this sinking feeling in my gut that almost resulted in tears but i was in such a state of shock i just couldnt let them go. I thought if maybe i went out and about that maybe things will pick up and my room mate would get here and i would have someone to talk to maybe even make friends with but when i got back it was exactly how i left it. So i sat and read for a little while and wrote and sketched and did every other little thing you do when your bored. Then i thought to myself, im in fuckin San Francsico, i cant be bored. Then i found myself just missing everyone, so i bought some transparent tape and taped pictures of everyone on the brick wall next to my bed.

Right now im cold, lonely and a little overwhelmed but im hoping things pick up. If i can make it through the semester with good grades i would feel really proud of myself because i can already tell its going to be an experience i wont forget. I miss you all so much, i love you truly.