is this thing on?
October 8th 2007 huh?
I imagine its been a while since I actually got on this thing and made a meaningful post to the public. I guess I should update everyone, and then I will conclude with my "meaningful post"
i graduated from UCF
i quit my job
I have 3 jobs now (kinda only go to 2 though)
none of them are "real jobs" but...
I am going to get my masters ...
probably not until May
Paolo and I are fantastic... he is my rock. Everyday he continues to make me happy. I love him more everyday.
I went to Vegas... loved it.
I am going on a cruise in November
I am really trying to find my "spot" in life right now
Money can tear people apart
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I sit here trying to go to bed, sleeping pills no longer seem to do the trick for me. I have so many uncertainties in my life... that really upset me the other night. I almost wish my life was planned out for me, sure it wouldnt be as exciting... but it would be a lot easier. The best things in life don't come easy... we've all heard that, but I think I understand that more. The other night I wanted to leave Florida. I wanted to pack my bags, get on a plane and go. But, I didnt even know where to go.
I dont really know where im going with this. Too many people put their lives on a timeline ex) saying they want to get married by 25, have kids by 27... etc. I think it is STUPID. Why do people set deadlines for such extreme lifechanging events? The other night I was so upset, I would have gone anywhere. All because I was confused as to my purpose in life right now, I didnt know where I stood (in any aspect). I learned that we will all have breakdowns... hell I have them quite often actually. But Im sitting here today, sick as hell, havent slept in days and I'm perfectly happy.
I realize this post has left the majority of you thinking I am a complete idiot, but somehow it has made me feel a lot better. People... don't be so hard on yourselves, once in a while disregard other peoples feelings and do what makes you happy. Step back and look at your goals, now step forward and accomplish them... without a timeline. Do it because you want to do it, do it when the time is right... they're goals, and dreams...
I imagine its been a while since I actually got on this thing and made a meaningful post to the public. I guess I should update everyone, and then I will conclude with my "meaningful post"
i graduated from UCF
i quit my job
I have 3 jobs now (kinda only go to 2 though)
none of them are "real jobs" but...
I am going to get my masters ...
probably not until May
Paolo and I are fantastic... he is my rock. Everyday he continues to make me happy. I love him more everyday.
I went to Vegas... loved it.
I am going on a cruise in November
I am really trying to find my "spot" in life right now
Money can tear people apart
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I sit here trying to go to bed, sleeping pills no longer seem to do the trick for me. I have so many uncertainties in my life... that really upset me the other night. I almost wish my life was planned out for me, sure it wouldnt be as exciting... but it would be a lot easier. The best things in life don't come easy... we've all heard that, but I think I understand that more. The other night I wanted to leave Florida. I wanted to pack my bags, get on a plane and go. But, I didnt even know where to go.
I dont really know where im going with this. Too many people put their lives on a timeline ex) saying they want to get married by 25, have kids by 27... etc. I think it is STUPID. Why do people set deadlines for such extreme lifechanging events? The other night I was so upset, I would have gone anywhere. All because I was confused as to my purpose in life right now, I didnt know where I stood (in any aspect). I learned that we will all have breakdowns... hell I have them quite often actually. But Im sitting here today, sick as hell, havent slept in days and I'm perfectly happy.
I realize this post has left the majority of you thinking I am a complete idiot, but somehow it has made me feel a lot better. People... don't be so hard on yourselves, once in a while disregard other peoples feelings and do what makes you happy. Step back and look at your goals, now step forward and accomplish them... without a timeline. Do it because you want to do it, do it when the time is right... they're goals, and dreams...