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Okay so do you ever have that feeling at the pit of your stomach that wishes you could turn back time...back to when things were amazing and back to when you could go to your room and say..."I have the most amazing guy, I love my boyfriend, I am so happy, I never want anything to change"?
Yeah well I do...I wish things went back to when I had Braden. I miss
him so much. I never spend one day not thinking of him...Is that pathetic?? Its been like 3 months already since we've broken up. He's moved on to Katie Bobo....How come I cant move on. Its not like I havent tried to move on...Tyler, Keith, Alex, Ryan, Matt....It doesnt feel the same. Maybe it just needs time but everytime I'd kiss someone else it would feel empty...Like something was missing....Its just...everytime I try to compare someone with Braden...I cant. No one compares to him. Yeah I understand why we broke up. I guess I was being stupid and I didnt appreciate him. I made him miserable but I dont know why. If I could go back in time I would go back to when we first started going out and I would appreciate him more and I would show him just how much I love him....because I do...I still love him.