so, its been awhile
i dont even know why i am making this post. its been forever since i was last on lj, but there is something inside of me telling me to do this.. i donno. maybe for myself. maybe the reality of high school being over actually set in. it 12:40 in the morning and i cant sleep because i am having so many problems. i dont know..
well heres an update.
i signed with wvsu for a full scholarship.
we play regionals thursday and if we win we are state tourney bound for a 2nd year in a row.
im real sick.
the doctor has to run test.
it might be diabetes.
that sucks.
roland and linas are still here.
i want my life back.
they are annoying.
school is almost out.
i never go to school so it doesnt matter anyways.
i hope i pass civics and dont have to go to summer school.
linas' mom might be coming here for graduation.
im pretty much on bad terms with everyone i know.
i want to apologize to everyone for anything ive said or done to hurt their feelings.
im tired of being trampled on.
i feel like i deserve as much respect as the next person.
so ive really been thinking. for some reason, the past 3 days ive felt as if the end is soon. and i know that the end of high school is soon, thats not what i mean... i feel like something is going to happen and for some reason i will no longer be capable of functioning and or not be alive. i know it sounds ridiculous, but... i realized that i dont want to die knowing that i pushed so many people away from me for all the wrong reasons. i want to apologize to everyone for anything ive done or said to the soon, because for some reason i feel like there will be no later. you may be getting a call from me soon. who ever you are, i am sure i have something to apologize to you about....
well heres an update.
i signed with wvsu for a full scholarship.
we play regionals thursday and if we win we are state tourney bound for a 2nd year in a row.
im real sick.
the doctor has to run test.
it might be diabetes.
that sucks.
roland and linas are still here.
i want my life back.
they are annoying.
school is almost out.
i never go to school so it doesnt matter anyways.
i hope i pass civics and dont have to go to summer school.
linas' mom might be coming here for graduation.
im pretty much on bad terms with everyone i know.
i want to apologize to everyone for anything ive said or done to hurt their feelings.
im tired of being trampled on.
i feel like i deserve as much respect as the next person.
so ive really been thinking. for some reason, the past 3 days ive felt as if the end is soon. and i know that the end of high school is soon, thats not what i mean... i feel like something is going to happen and for some reason i will no longer be capable of functioning and or not be alive. i know it sounds ridiculous, but... i realized that i dont want to die knowing that i pushed so many people away from me for all the wrong reasons. i want to apologize to everyone for anything ive done or said to the soon, because for some reason i feel like there will be no later. you may be getting a call from me soon. who ever you are, i am sure i have something to apologize to you about....