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I left the freezer door open yesterday...all day. Needless to say, our freezer is now free of food. I felt like an idiot.
The struggle to figure out my future continues. I can't stand people who know what they want to do...they make it look so easy, and yet it is soooo hard.
I'm still getting into this new job...it's basically like 2 separate jobs, b/c on Tuesdays and Thursdays the after-school program is closed, so I work elsewhere within the company. I haven't had to do anything there yet, b/c people haven't been showing up for the appointments. That part of the job is basically interviewing kids in the Dept. of Juvenile Justice who have been to court and crap and deciding if they need to take any classes, like substance abuse or get psychological testing. As far as my "real" job goes...the paperwork sucks b/c I feel like I'll never remember to do it all, but Monday I had this realization. I'm an adult, doing a real job. I'm in charge. I started feeling like my old self again...the one from high school, who was president of the service club and section leader in the band.
Speaking of high school, my mom made me go through 4 boxes of stuff from the shed, and the first box was all senior year stuff from high school. It made me sooo sad. I found a note from a girl I became good friends with senior year...she got married recently (a small courthouse wedding, then a big official one) and I wasn't told about it at all. Makes me sad. The note said we should become better friends and we could really relate to each other or something. I almost cried. And another friend had sent me a postcard from France and said I should go with her sometimes (she's French), but I never took her up on her offer, and now I haven't seen her in 5 years. Neither of them. And another good friend is engaged...I emailed her to congratulate her and she never emailed me back. I like to think that's b/c I sent it to her school email and she might not have gotten b/c she had already graduated, but I can't be sure. Those girls were some of my closest friends in high school, and now I can't even get in touch with them...actually I found two of them on myspace, but one is in Iraq...the other one friended me, so we'll have to chat. I miss the freedom and friends of high school. And college.
The struggle to figure out my future continues. I can't stand people who know what they want to do...they make it look so easy, and yet it is soooo hard.
I'm still getting into this new job...it's basically like 2 separate jobs, b/c on Tuesdays and Thursdays the after-school program is closed, so I work elsewhere within the company. I haven't had to do anything there yet, b/c people haven't been showing up for the appointments. That part of the job is basically interviewing kids in the Dept. of Juvenile Justice who have been to court and crap and deciding if they need to take any classes, like substance abuse or get psychological testing. As far as my "real" job goes...the paperwork sucks b/c I feel like I'll never remember to do it all, but Monday I had this realization. I'm an adult, doing a real job. I'm in charge. I started feeling like my old self again...the one from high school, who was president of the service club and section leader in the band.
Speaking of high school, my mom made me go through 4 boxes of stuff from the shed, and the first box was all senior year stuff from high school. It made me sooo sad. I found a note from a girl I became good friends with senior year...she got married recently (a small courthouse wedding, then a big official one) and I wasn't told about it at all. Makes me sad. The note said we should become better friends and we could really relate to each other or something. I almost cried. And another friend had sent me a postcard from France and said I should go with her sometimes (she's French), but I never took her up on her offer, and now I haven't seen her in 5 years. Neither of them. And another good friend is engaged...I emailed her to congratulate her and she never emailed me back. I like to think that's b/c I sent it to her school email and she might not have gotten b/c she had already graduated, but I can't be sure. Those girls were some of my closest friends in high school, and now I can't even get in touch with them...actually I found two of them on myspace, but one is in Iraq...the other one friended me, so we'll have to chat. I miss the freedom and friends of high school. And college.