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I had this dream this morning that really upset me...I don't remember all of the details anymore, but it doesn't really matter b/c it didn't make much sense anyway.
I guess I was at a band competition or something...my old band directors were there and I went up to talk to Mr. Hannah, but he was sad about something and looked like he was about to cry. I was wondering why he was upset and I somehow found out, I think from Mr. Nelson, that they had just killed my friends Ben, Ross, and Eric P. (Ben was a friend from high school, Ross a friend from LEAD Scholars, and Eric from PSP. Ross wasn't even really a friend, just a guy I knew.) So, I asked Nelson why they killed them and they said that they wanted to die, and then I get like a flashback of a seemingly happy Eric saying that he just doesn't care anymore and wants to die, or something like that. Then I'm in a book/toy store which my band directors run, instead of the football field we were in before. They're trying to get the store up and running and Nelson is acting like nothing happened and Hannah is still sad. I decided to run across a very busy street to find my sister, Jamie, who apparently is at the field which is now across the street. So I dodge cars and get over there and she's not there so I start to go back and she's coming across the street from the store to me. She says that she bought me the book I wanted and points out her toes, which are elaborately painted for Auburn. (Totally random and weird...she doesn't even like football.) She's not bothered by the fact that my old teachers killed my friends. I tell her that the book is the wrong one and I run back across the street to return it. I have been crying this whole time, btw, ever since I was told that my friends were killed and they asked for it...like tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. So, I get to the store and I see a bunch of people I don't know, and an old band friend, Lauren, behind the counter. I go to the guy next to her and I'm wondering if she knows that Ben is dead and I start crying all over again and she starts crying, too, so I know she knows, so I go to talk to her about it and then I wake up.
I almost started crying right when I woke up. I just felt like bawling. I almost couldn't get out of bed, I was so depressed.
I guess I was at a band competition or something...my old band directors were there and I went up to talk to Mr. Hannah, but he was sad about something and looked like he was about to cry. I was wondering why he was upset and I somehow found out, I think from Mr. Nelson, that they had just killed my friends Ben, Ross, and Eric P. (Ben was a friend from high school, Ross a friend from LEAD Scholars, and Eric from PSP. Ross wasn't even really a friend, just a guy I knew.) So, I asked Nelson why they killed them and they said that they wanted to die, and then I get like a flashback of a seemingly happy Eric saying that he just doesn't care anymore and wants to die, or something like that. Then I'm in a book/toy store which my band directors run, instead of the football field we were in before. They're trying to get the store up and running and Nelson is acting like nothing happened and Hannah is still sad. I decided to run across a very busy street to find my sister, Jamie, who apparently is at the field which is now across the street. So I dodge cars and get over there and she's not there so I start to go back and she's coming across the street from the store to me. She says that she bought me the book I wanted and points out her toes, which are elaborately painted for Auburn. (Totally random and weird...she doesn't even like football.) She's not bothered by the fact that my old teachers killed my friends. I tell her that the book is the wrong one and I run back across the street to return it. I have been crying this whole time, btw, ever since I was told that my friends were killed and they asked for it...like tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. So, I get to the store and I see a bunch of people I don't know, and an old band friend, Lauren, behind the counter. I go to the guy next to her and I'm wondering if she knows that Ben is dead and I start crying all over again and she starts crying, too, so I know she knows, so I go to talk to her about it and then I wake up.
I almost started crying right when I woke up. I just felt like bawling. I almost couldn't get out of bed, I was so depressed.