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Well, it's been so long since I've updated I don't know if I've mentioned it. I have decided to get a masters degree in Social Work. There are a lot of different things I can do with that degree, including counseling, which is what I would really like to do. Or maybe be a school social worker. I like kids, I just can't stand trying to teach them. I'm going to apply to UCF and FSU Panama City. I would like to go to UCF to get away from home once and for all...like a final move, but I probably won't be able to do it unless I get a really good job down there...which I would have to do before I could move down there. Complicated. And I don't know how to go about applying...they already have my transcripts and immunization form there, but do I have to actually pay $5 to have my transcripts sent to another part of campus? Anyone who has gone to UCF for both undergrad and grad school, please help me out! If I went to FSUPC I would drive there...it's like an hour and 15 minutes to an hour and a half drive, but I could afford it better.
I was going to go visit Orlando for Relay weekend, but it looks like I have no one to stay with, so it's all up in the air right now. There are a few people I want to go for, but they can't help me...all of the people I would have asked back when I graduated now hate me, which is funny, b/c I wasn't even around when THAT all started. Hate to bring this up again, but I guess it just shows you the way people really are...if you're the type of person who will just hate someone b/c they occasionally wrote depressing things online then you aren't the type of person anyone should be friends with, especially not me. I wasn't even depressed when I was around people half the time, it was normally while I was drunk or after a drunk night. But does anyone care? No. Friendship means more than just hanging around when everything is going right and everyone is happy. I know who matters now, although there are still a couple of people I am surprised and hurt about, but most of them are no loss. If you notice, most of the people who still like me are the ones who never read my livejournal. I must not have been that bad of a person to actually be around...I guess I was just stupid to vent in a journal, which is normally a place you vent. I like people to know how I feel, I'm an honest person, that's why I wouldn't censor my feelings, but I guess I should have. Man, I get started then I keep going...these are all things I still think about when I'm on my long drive to work. So, the moral of the story is be a good person and don't look down on people just because they have a bad moment. It's not like I really dislike any of the people who were so rude to me last year, and I think I have a lot more reason to hate them than they do me. I'll just continue to be the good person I am and maybe people will mature. We might see...if I can ever find a place to stay.
I was going to go visit Orlando for Relay weekend, but it looks like I have no one to stay with, so it's all up in the air right now. There are a few people I want to go for, but they can't help me...all of the people I would have asked back when I graduated now hate me, which is funny, b/c I wasn't even around when THAT all started. Hate to bring this up again, but I guess it just shows you the way people really are...if you're the type of person who will just hate someone b/c they occasionally wrote depressing things online then you aren't the type of person anyone should be friends with, especially not me. I wasn't even depressed when I was around people half the time, it was normally while I was drunk or after a drunk night. But does anyone care? No. Friendship means more than just hanging around when everything is going right and everyone is happy. I know who matters now, although there are still a couple of people I am surprised and hurt about, but most of them are no loss. If you notice, most of the people who still like me are the ones who never read my livejournal. I must not have been that bad of a person to actually be around...I guess I was just stupid to vent in a journal, which is normally a place you vent. I like people to know how I feel, I'm an honest person, that's why I wouldn't censor my feelings, but I guess I should have. Man, I get started then I keep going...these are all things I still think about when I'm on my long drive to work. So, the moral of the story is be a good person and don't look down on people just because they have a bad moment. It's not like I really dislike any of the people who were so rude to me last year, and I think I have a lot more reason to hate them than they do me. I'll just continue to be the good person I am and maybe people will mature. We might see...if I can ever find a place to stay.