the worst day of my life..................
i hate times like these. my best friend and i are having problems although she doesn't know i feel this way. i feel like we aren't best friends anymore. this really scares me. i am so afraid that since she has moved to a different school and become the most popular girl, that we aren't best friends anymore. i know i get this way a lot but this time is the worst i have felt. i was talking to rachel about it and while i was talking/thinking about it all my tears started rolling down. i don't want to cause drama. i don't like to start these things, but i really feel like when she graduates from high school that we will lose contact. i don't want to say im jelous but i am. im jelous that she hangs out with new people, im jelous she has soo many friends, im jelous of her looks, im jelous of everything about her. i can't stand that i don't get to hear everything new about her life before anyone else does. im sorry this is so much drama but i have to get my feelings heard, I CAN'T HIDE BEHIND MY SMILE ANYMORE!!