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I want to go.
Lately, I have been filled with the desire to just GO.
I was going to go to college, find my sweetheart, get a job, get married, and have kids. That was the plan. I want those things, but there is something that I want more.
Now I just want to be good, and I want to DO good. I don't want to live here. If I don't get a music teaching job for next year, I don't think I'm going to stay here. And by here, I don't mean in my parents house. I don't mean in the Milwaukee area. I mean, I don't want to be in this country anymore. I want to go someplace and do something REALLY good. I want to go someplace and REALLY REALLY help someone who REALLY REALLY needs it.
I don't want to work an eight hour a day kinda job, and chase after a promotion so I can make more money, get a better house and a nicer car, and pay to keep my kids in soccer and karate. I don't want to chase after things that I don't really need.
I want to chase after goodness. REAL goodness. I want to remember what really matters; my God. I want to need him, like I don't need him now because I have everything. I am overfed, overpaid, and I have too much stuff, and NONE of that is doing me ANY good.
Dave says the problem with America is that we don't give enough. That may be true, but I think that stems from the real issue; we don't NEED. If you NEED, you will be generous when others are needy. Being compassionate is a precious gift. You can't be compassionate unless you've needed someone elses compassion.
We don't need.
I want to need, and I want to give.
I'm thinking about being a missionary.
Dave is the only thing that makes me hesitate, but I don't think that will last long.
Not because I don't think we'll last, but because I know we will.
Lately, I have been filled with the desire to just GO.
I was going to go to college, find my sweetheart, get a job, get married, and have kids. That was the plan. I want those things, but there is something that I want more.
Now I just want to be good, and I want to DO good. I don't want to live here. If I don't get a music teaching job for next year, I don't think I'm going to stay here. And by here, I don't mean in my parents house. I don't mean in the Milwaukee area. I mean, I don't want to be in this country anymore. I want to go someplace and do something REALLY good. I want to go someplace and REALLY REALLY help someone who REALLY REALLY needs it.
I don't want to work an eight hour a day kinda job, and chase after a promotion so I can make more money, get a better house and a nicer car, and pay to keep my kids in soccer and karate. I don't want to chase after things that I don't really need.
I want to chase after goodness. REAL goodness. I want to remember what really matters; my God. I want to need him, like I don't need him now because I have everything. I am overfed, overpaid, and I have too much stuff, and NONE of that is doing me ANY good.
Dave says the problem with America is that we don't give enough. That may be true, but I think that stems from the real issue; we don't NEED. If you NEED, you will be generous when others are needy. Being compassionate is a precious gift. You can't be compassionate unless you've needed someone elses compassion.
We don't need.
I want to need, and I want to give.
I'm thinking about being a missionary.
Dave is the only thing that makes me hesitate, but I don't think that will last long.
Not because I don't think we'll last, but because I know we will.