songs for a sombre heart
Oh yes, this is my life.
This is everything you wanted to know about me and more.
Grim Heart/ Black Rose- Converge
when i see me in your eyes
i just want to go blind
when i build coffin worlds with words
i just want a place to hide
when old ghosts meet new regrets
my daylight fades to grey
when our days bring guilt and shame
my heart turns black
these are my tombs
painted black and blue
these are my tombs painted
just for you
goodnight
goodnight dear
goodbye
black rose
be my light
in the darkness of nights
be my heart
Close to you- Little Birdy
O take me home
Don't give up on me
My selfish heart is alone tonight
Wait they say you always get your way
True love aint doing me no good
I wanna let somebody out
And I need you now more than ever
And I need you now for me
I wanna be close to you when everybody's gone
I wanna be close to you when everybody's gone
Wait they say you always get your way
True love aint doing me no good
I wanna let somebody out
And I need you now more than ever
And I need you now for me
I wanna be close to you when everybody's gone
The Patient- Tool
A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful.
Is this a test?
It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on
Draining patience, drain vitality,
this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old
But I'm still right here, giving blood, keeping faith. And I'm still right here
But I'm still right here, giving blood, keeping faith. And I'm still right here
I'm gonna wait it out
If there were no rewards to reap,
loving embrace to see me through,
this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now
I'm gonna wait it out
If there were no desire to heal,
The damaged and broken met along,
this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now
And I still may. And I still may
Be patient
I must keep reminding myself of this...
If there were no rewards to reap,
loving embrace to see me through,
this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now
And I still may
And I...
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
It was fear of myself that made me odd- Aexisonfire
(Breathe in all the air)
Spinning, arms spread
Crushing the tops of mountains
With my hands
As I dive in to the Pacific
I flood the shorelines
And I exhale
Causing the oceans' endless waves
As I emerge
Shaking the wreckage from my hair
With my hands
I want to breathe
Life into the Dead Sea
As this rain forest
Falls beneath my knees
I want to breathe
Life into the Dead Sea
Below, where is your boat?
You are slow, you are slow
I will play until the sky is black (You...)
Breathe in all the air
Exhale and choke the land with carbon (...are so slow, slow)
Burn it all
Looking down
From where I stand
I can see the curvature of the Earth
And I want to make it flat
I will play, the sky is black
I will play, the sky is black
To be treated- Terry Reid
Oh we are what we are when in danger
And we are as we stand head in hand
When a friend brings to light
On a cold silver knife
You can stare your fate right into his hands
Oh we are what we are when we'll name to
Be the soul-owning guardians of lands
And there's always advice
On a cold winter's night
That your dreams are just an island in the sand
Way out in the sand
Don't it seem so strange
How it just don't change
Things just stay the same
As they've always been
Some of us are out to win
And some others are out just to aim
Oh we are what we are when we're praying
In our own way of seeking some light
May the mission bell still ring
Of the colorful dreams
In the faith that everyone will be treated right
The Widow- The Mars Volta
He's got fasting black lungs
Made of clove splintered shardes
They're the kind that will talk
Through a weezing of coughs
And I hear him every night
In every pore
And every time he just makes me warm
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Must I hide?
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Look at how they flock to him
From an isle of open sores
He knows that the taste is such
Such to die for
And I hear him every night
On every street
The scales that do slither
Deliver me from…
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Then I'll hide
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Oh lord
Said I'm bloodshot for sure
Pale runs the ghost
Swollen on the shore
Everynight
in every pore
The scales that do slither
Deliver me from…
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Then I'll hide
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Let me die
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Message to God- Little Birdy
I'm losing track of everything
I haven't lost my mind
I go along with you
I take it all away
But baby let me float along to the place where I was born
I'm only holding grace
Its just a crying game that you take
Oh with you
Oh with you
Wont somebody please write a message to god
So won't you come and walk with me
Take me down by the shore
Deep among the sharks
There's a song I know you sing
But you live you're life alone
You live it so you grow
There's little time to grasp
I'm not the one you want so I go
Wont somebody please write a message to god
Wont somebody please write a message to god
Today I feel like the
World is gonna end
The end is the end
Go ahead don't cry
Baby
I'm on my own
Baby
I'm my own
It meant nothing- The Hope Conspiracy
Blood poured from the core,
raining down painting completion,
crush this love dead heart,
let the rapture shift to sorrow,
betray, deceit, wolf in sheep's casting, dreams of yesterday cut deep,
bleed me dry, empty, hollow, cold and callous, make me whole once again, you can shut it off,
all those feelings,
you can put it away,
all those memories,
driving nails through my heart, with a smile,
reality ripped our heaven apart, gutless as we tear it down,
sleepless, finding comfort in nothing, knowing who and what we are, and I just talk in circles,
empty a feeble skin, aloft these winds of torment,
hollow a blackened heart, tear it out, it meant nothing.
Miranda, this ghost isn't holy anymore- The Mars Volta
a. VADE MECUM
I’ve always wanted
To eat glass with you again
But I never knew how
How to talk without
Walls dropping on the eve
The nest they made couldn’t break you
Along the fallen
Scowled a fence of beaks
But the temple is scathing
Through your veins
They were scaling
Through an ice pick of abscess reckoning
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
And whoever said that they would scatter
Separating the mother from child
She can bat a broken eyelid
Raining maggots from it’s sty
And with the traces that she leaves
She will skin you out alive
All the children go grinding their jaws
The sweet smell of their toothless canals
And the damn she will break,
Make an ocean from this lake
As they siphon off all our blood
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
b. POUR ANOTHER ICEPICK
I think I've become like one of the others
I think I've become like one of the others
I think I've become like one of the others
There was a frail syrup dripping off
His lap danced lapel, punctuated by her
Decrepit prowl she washed down the hatching
Gizzard soft as a mane of needles
His orifice icicles hemorrhaged
By combing her torso to a pile
Perspired the trophy shelves made room for his collapse
She was a mink hand job in sarcophagus heels
Bring me to my knees
Read the sharpened lines
All my arms,
Bled me blind
Faucet leaks in shadows
Spilling from morgue lancet
Caressed your fontanelle
I've sworn to kill every last one
Every last one
Panic in the shakes of the wounded
Panic in the worms
Onto the floor
And out of your mouth
Out of your eyelids
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
All your dreams, splintered off
Leech by leech on this catafalque
Anyone will tell you, yes anyone
Chance had me setting a trip wire alarm
Your mother flirted with disease
When she skinned that costume by it's navel strings
Panic in the shakes of the wounded
Panic in the worms, onto the floor
And out of your mouth
And out of your eyelids
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
Shock lest shackles free you
Volt face cons
abandon you again
I won't feel not this time
Shock lest shackles free you
Volt face cons
abandon you again
I won't feel not this time
c. PISACIS (PHRA-MEN-MA)
Brick by brick, the night eclipsed
Pricked by cuticle thorns
Dried the sleep on nursery slits
Into this life I'm born
Heaven's just a scab away
I'd like to see you after just one taste
Sink your teeth into the flesh of midnight
Night forever more,
Let them see it has begun
The others I've become
If you should see the dice,
Charmed with it's snaked choked eyes
You'll wear the widows weeds
Because they're just your size
Behind the snail secretion,
Leaves a dry heave that absorbs
A limbless procreation,
Let the infant crawled deformed
A bag replaced the breath of these suffocating sheets
And now when the craving calls
I'll scratch my itchy teeth
Come on and sing it now...
Sink your teeth into the flesh of midnight,
Night forever more
Sink your teeth into the flesh of midnight,
Night forever more
She fell for the whispers,
Sister flooded deaf tears
That night tore a river,
In her baron womb mirror
And his multiple sons with their mandible tongues
Set crucified fires to petrified homes...
Let it burn
And the owls they were watching
And the owls didn't care
Then the owls came a knocking,
Placenta in their stares
They will feed on all the carnage,
Leftover from the flood
And in the corner of their eyes,
Fled sister L' Via
Sister L' Via
Now the pieces went floating,
Reflecting all at dusk
Conceived from the stabbing,
was Vismund Cygnus
Twenty five wives in the lake tonight...
d. CON SAFO
Twenty five wives in the lake tonight
Raw bark in the water of the marble shrine
Twenty five snakes pour out your eyes
Yeah the icepicks coming on the marble shrine
Twenty five snakes are drowning
Regret Kills- The Hope Conspiracy
If she could ever love again, could ever trust again,
her love you loved away,
when she was screaming you walked away,
her tear stung eyes, tell me how you do it, striking at a angels face, so cold.
so empty, words cut like razors, cut deeper than you care to notice,
scars of hate. she still bleeds no!
seasons streak through out he rear view,
time heals nothing it never does,
falling in falling out another failure, another kid lost another one gone forever,
months have come and gone, quicker than a hang-up,
that was your defense, screaming at deafened walls,
when the doves fly high, and peace graces these days, look in those eyes, I hope it breaks your heart, I hope it makes you choke
Lady Lazarus- Sylvia Plath
I have done it again.
One year in every ten
I manage it--
A sort of walking miracle, my skin
Bright as a Nazi lampshade,
My right foot
A paperweight,
My face featureless, fine
Jew linen.
Peel off the napkin
O my enemy.
Do I terrify?--
The nose, the eye pits, the full set of teeth?
The sour breath
Will vanish in a day.
Soon, soon the flesh
The grave cave ate will be
At home on me
And I a smiling woman.
I am only thirty.
And like the cat I have nine times to die.
This is Number Three.
What a trash
To annihilate each decade.
What a million filaments.
The peanut-crunching crowd
Shoves in to see
Them unwrap me hand and foot--
The big strip tease.
Gentlemen, ladies
These are my hands
My knees.
I may be skin and bone,
Nevertheless, I am the same, identical woman.
The first time it happened I was ten.
It was an accident.
The second time I meant
To last it out and not come back at all.
I rocked shut
As a seashell.
They had to call and call
And pick the worms off me like sticky pearls.
Dying
Is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.
I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say I've a call.
It's easy enough to do it in a cell.
It's easy enough to do it and stay put.
It's the theatrical
Comeback in broad day
To the same place, the same face, the same brute
Amused shout:
'A miracle!'
That knocks me out.
There is a charge
For the eyeing of my scars, there is a charge
For the hearing of my heart--
It really goes.
And there is a charge, a very large charge
For a word or a touch
Or a bit of blood
Or a piece of my hair or my clothes.
So, so, Herr Doktor.
So, Herr Enemy.
I am your opus,
I am your valuable,
The pure gold baby
That melts to a shriek.
I turn and burn.
Do not think I underestimate your great concern.
Ash, ash--
You poke and stir.
Flesh, bone, there is nothing there--
A cake of soap,
A wedding ring,
A gold filling.
Herr god, Herr Lucifer
Beware
Beware.
Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And I eat men like air
This is everything you wanted to know about me and more.
Grim Heart/ Black Rose- Converge
when i see me in your eyes
i just want to go blind
when i build coffin worlds with words
i just want a place to hide
when old ghosts meet new regrets
my daylight fades to grey
when our days bring guilt and shame
my heart turns black
these are my tombs
painted black and blue
these are my tombs painted
just for you
goodnight
goodnight dear
goodbye
black rose
be my light
in the darkness of nights
be my heart
Close to you- Little Birdy
O take me home
Don't give up on me
My selfish heart is alone tonight
Wait they say you always get your way
True love aint doing me no good
I wanna let somebody out
And I need you now more than ever
And I need you now for me
I wanna be close to you when everybody's gone
I wanna be close to you when everybody's gone
Wait they say you always get your way
True love aint doing me no good
I wanna let somebody out
And I need you now more than ever
And I need you now for me
I wanna be close to you when everybody's gone
The Patient- Tool
A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful.
Is this a test?
It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on
Draining patience, drain vitality,
this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old
But I'm still right here, giving blood, keeping faith. And I'm still right here
But I'm still right here, giving blood, keeping faith. And I'm still right here
I'm gonna wait it out
If there were no rewards to reap,
loving embrace to see me through,
this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now
I'm gonna wait it out
If there were no desire to heal,
The damaged and broken met along,
this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now
And I still may. And I still may
Be patient
I must keep reminding myself of this...
If there were no rewards to reap,
loving embrace to see me through,
this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now
And I still may
And I...
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
It was fear of myself that made me odd- Aexisonfire
(Breathe in all the air)
Spinning, arms spread
Crushing the tops of mountains
With my hands
As I dive in to the Pacific
I flood the shorelines
And I exhale
Causing the oceans' endless waves
As I emerge
Shaking the wreckage from my hair
With my hands
I want to breathe
Life into the Dead Sea
As this rain forest
Falls beneath my knees
I want to breathe
Life into the Dead Sea
Below, where is your boat?
You are slow, you are slow
I will play until the sky is black (You...)
Breathe in all the air
Exhale and choke the land with carbon (...are so slow, slow)
Burn it all
Looking down
From where I stand
I can see the curvature of the Earth
And I want to make it flat
I will play, the sky is black
I will play, the sky is black
To be treated- Terry Reid
Oh we are what we are when in danger
And we are as we stand head in hand
When a friend brings to light
On a cold silver knife
You can stare your fate right into his hands
Oh we are what we are when we'll name to
Be the soul-owning guardians of lands
And there's always advice
On a cold winter's night
That your dreams are just an island in the sand
Way out in the sand
Don't it seem so strange
How it just don't change
Things just stay the same
As they've always been
Some of us are out to win
And some others are out just to aim
Oh we are what we are when we're praying
In our own way of seeking some light
May the mission bell still ring
Of the colorful dreams
In the faith that everyone will be treated right
The Widow- The Mars Volta
He's got fasting black lungs
Made of clove splintered shardes
They're the kind that will talk
Through a weezing of coughs
And I hear him every night
In every pore
And every time he just makes me warm
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Must I hide?
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Look at how they flock to him
From an isle of open sores
He knows that the taste is such
Such to die for
And I hear him every night
On every street
The scales that do slither
Deliver me from…
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Then I'll hide
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Oh lord
Said I'm bloodshot for sure
Pale runs the ghost
Swollen on the shore
Everynight
in every pore
The scales that do slither
Deliver me from…
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Then I'll hide
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Let me die
Cause I'll never
Never sleep alone
Message to God- Little Birdy
I'm losing track of everything
I haven't lost my mind
I go along with you
I take it all away
But baby let me float along to the place where I was born
I'm only holding grace
Its just a crying game that you take
Oh with you
Oh with you
Wont somebody please write a message to god
So won't you come and walk with me
Take me down by the shore
Deep among the sharks
There's a song I know you sing
But you live you're life alone
You live it so you grow
There's little time to grasp
I'm not the one you want so I go
Wont somebody please write a message to god
Wont somebody please write a message to god
Today I feel like the
World is gonna end
The end is the end
Go ahead don't cry
Baby
I'm on my own
Baby
I'm my own
It meant nothing- The Hope Conspiracy
Blood poured from the core,
raining down painting completion,
crush this love dead heart,
let the rapture shift to sorrow,
betray, deceit, wolf in sheep's casting, dreams of yesterday cut deep,
bleed me dry, empty, hollow, cold and callous, make me whole once again, you can shut it off,
all those feelings,
you can put it away,
all those memories,
driving nails through my heart, with a smile,
reality ripped our heaven apart, gutless as we tear it down,
sleepless, finding comfort in nothing, knowing who and what we are, and I just talk in circles,
empty a feeble skin, aloft these winds of torment,
hollow a blackened heart, tear it out, it meant nothing.
Miranda, this ghost isn't holy anymore- The Mars Volta
a. VADE MECUM
I’ve always wanted
To eat glass with you again
But I never knew how
How to talk without
Walls dropping on the eve
The nest they made couldn’t break you
Along the fallen
Scowled a fence of beaks
But the temple is scathing
Through your veins
They were scaling
Through an ice pick of abscess reckoning
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
And whoever said that they would scatter
Separating the mother from child
She can bat a broken eyelid
Raining maggots from it’s sty
And with the traces that she leaves
She will skin you out alive
All the children go grinding their jaws
The sweet smell of their toothless canals
And the damn she will break,
Make an ocean from this lake
As they siphon off all our blood
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey
b. POUR ANOTHER ICEPICK
I think I've become like one of the others
I think I've become like one of the others
I think I've become like one of the others
There was a frail syrup dripping off
His lap danced lapel, punctuated by her
Decrepit prowl she washed down the hatching
Gizzard soft as a mane of needles
His orifice icicles hemorrhaged
By combing her torso to a pile
Perspired the trophy shelves made room for his collapse
She was a mink hand job in sarcophagus heels
Bring me to my knees
Read the sharpened lines
All my arms,
Bled me blind
Faucet leaks in shadows
Spilling from morgue lancet
Caressed your fontanelle
I've sworn to kill every last one
Every last one
Panic in the shakes of the wounded
Panic in the worms
Onto the floor
And out of your mouth
Out of your eyelids
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
All your dreams, splintered off
Leech by leech on this catafalque
Anyone will tell you, yes anyone
Chance had me setting a trip wire alarm
Your mother flirted with disease
When she skinned that costume by it's navel strings
Panic in the shakes of the wounded
Panic in the worms, onto the floor
And out of your mouth
And out of your eyelids
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
No there's no light, in the darkest
Of your furthest reaches
Shock lest shackles free you
Volt face cons
abandon you again
I won't feel not this time
Shock lest shackles free you
Volt face cons
abandon you again
I won't feel not this time
c. PISACIS (PHRA-MEN-MA)
Brick by brick, the night eclipsed
Pricked by cuticle thorns
Dried the sleep on nursery slits
Into this life I'm born
Heaven's just a scab away
I'd like to see you after just one taste
Sink your teeth into the flesh of midnight
Night forever more,
Let them see it has begun
The others I've become
If you should see the dice,
Charmed with it's snaked choked eyes
You'll wear the widows weeds
Because they're just your size
Behind the snail secretion,
Leaves a dry heave that absorbs
A limbless procreation,
Let the infant crawled deformed
A bag replaced the breath of these suffocating sheets
And now when the craving calls
I'll scratch my itchy teeth
Come on and sing it now...
Sink your teeth into the flesh of midnight,
Night forever more
Sink your teeth into the flesh of midnight,
Night forever more
She fell for the whispers,
Sister flooded deaf tears
That night tore a river,
In her baron womb mirror
And his multiple sons with their mandible tongues
Set crucified fires to petrified homes...
Let it burn
And the owls they were watching
And the owls didn't care
Then the owls came a knocking,
Placenta in their stares
They will feed on all the carnage,
Leftover from the flood
And in the corner of their eyes,
Fled sister L' Via
Sister L' Via
Now the pieces went floating,
Reflecting all at dusk
Conceived from the stabbing,
was Vismund Cygnus
Twenty five wives in the lake tonight...
d. CON SAFO
Twenty five wives in the lake tonight
Raw bark in the water of the marble shrine
Twenty five snakes pour out your eyes
Yeah the icepicks coming on the marble shrine
Twenty five snakes are drowning
Regret Kills- The Hope Conspiracy
If she could ever love again, could ever trust again,
her love you loved away,
when she was screaming you walked away,
her tear stung eyes, tell me how you do it, striking at a angels face, so cold.
so empty, words cut like razors, cut deeper than you care to notice,
scars of hate. she still bleeds no!
seasons streak through out he rear view,
time heals nothing it never does,
falling in falling out another failure, another kid lost another one gone forever,
months have come and gone, quicker than a hang-up,
that was your defense, screaming at deafened walls,
when the doves fly high, and peace graces these days, look in those eyes, I hope it breaks your heart, I hope it makes you choke
Lady Lazarus- Sylvia Plath
I have done it again.
One year in every ten
I manage it--
A sort of walking miracle, my skin
Bright as a Nazi lampshade,
My right foot
A paperweight,
My face featureless, fine
Jew linen.
Peel off the napkin
O my enemy.
Do I terrify?--
The nose, the eye pits, the full set of teeth?
The sour breath
Will vanish in a day.
Soon, soon the flesh
The grave cave ate will be
At home on me
And I a smiling woman.
I am only thirty.
And like the cat I have nine times to die.
This is Number Three.
What a trash
To annihilate each decade.
What a million filaments.
The peanut-crunching crowd
Shoves in to see
Them unwrap me hand and foot--
The big strip tease.
Gentlemen, ladies
These are my hands
My knees.
I may be skin and bone,
Nevertheless, I am the same, identical woman.
The first time it happened I was ten.
It was an accident.
The second time I meant
To last it out and not come back at all.
I rocked shut
As a seashell.
They had to call and call
And pick the worms off me like sticky pearls.
Dying
Is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.
I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say I've a call.
It's easy enough to do it in a cell.
It's easy enough to do it and stay put.
It's the theatrical
Comeback in broad day
To the same place, the same face, the same brute
Amused shout:
'A miracle!'
That knocks me out.
There is a charge
For the eyeing of my scars, there is a charge
For the hearing of my heart--
It really goes.
And there is a charge, a very large charge
For a word or a touch
Or a bit of blood
Or a piece of my hair or my clothes.
So, so, Herr Doktor.
So, Herr Enemy.
I am your opus,
I am your valuable,
The pure gold baby
That melts to a shriek.
I turn and burn.
Do not think I underestimate your great concern.
Ash, ash--
You poke and stir.
Flesh, bone, there is nothing there--
A cake of soap,
A wedding ring,
A gold filling.
Herr god, Herr Lucifer
Beware
Beware.
Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And I eat men like air