who are you today?
sometimes i can look at the way my life is unfolding itself and i will think everything is great. i used to think like that near enough all the time but something has changed and i can't do it anymore. now when i think about it, i feel like shit. every little thing that i think about ends up being something i don't want to think about.
eg.......
my dad......... i think about all the things me and my dad used to do and realise how much i miss him. then there's the whole thought proccess of what if?
craig........ normally seems more bothered about what's on the telly or what hanna has said to him.
mates........... nobody seems to want to know. i send i text and either get no reply or oh sorry all of us are out having fun without you. i must be either a real bore or a shit mate. if that is the case, i wish one of you would just come out and say it.
mum and brian......... make me feel so unwelcome in my own home that i don't know what to say.
friends and family.......yeah...... what more do you need?
( to all the people i consider to be a friend, i'm sorry if i've offended you, it's just the way i'm feeling )
going for a bath. might come back later.