It's been a long time since I wrote in this thing...
So the last time I wrote in this thing was almost 3 months ago....so much for trying to make writing in this thing a habit lol. Well to be quite honest these last few months have been some of the hardest times in my life. Mainly because it became crunch time for auditions to remain in Musical Theater. I was still having a hard time in Chekhov. I probably had about three good days in the class; the rest of the time I was struggling to do well. Like I've said in another entry, the waltz wasn't a problem for me at all, it was the acting that killed me. It was this semester, in Dick's class especially, that I started to lose confidence in myself and my abilities as an actor. I was trying as hard as I could but it never came out right. I wasn't digging deep enough or not connecting enough with the character or you name it, according to Dick I was doing it wrong. I was working hard on my songs outside of class as well. Trisha helped me a lot especially with my belt song and on my PSA for both songs. Betty Allen wasn't much of a help when it came to coaching me on Make Believe; she told me the lesson before my audition that she didn't think it was a good song for me, that my vibrato was still too problematic. I freaked out and walked straight over to Monte's office and sang for him and he was like "you sound fine." Go figure.
I thought a new paragraph might be easier on the eyes cuz Lord knows I have a lot more to say tehehehe. Lindsay was my monologue coach and I started to feel super confident, my two monologues from Marsha's class were in excellent shape, all I could hope was that they would pick one of those two. My Chekhov monologue was okay, it was just so hard to get into since it was so short. I go into my monologue audition, what does Marsha pick for me my Chekhov monologue. My singing audition went pretty well too, I was proud of myself. My mom surprised me and drove down and saw my Chekhov showcase and all of my upperclassmen friends told me that I did a great job on my scene. I was feeling confident.
Then Friday the 7th came and it also happened to be my birthday. I go to get my letter, open it outside of the office, and read the words I was dreading.....I got cut after two hardass years of sweat and tons of work. I was heartbroken and began to panic. Happy birthday to me. Fortunately Trisha, Jon, Angie, Clay, Amanda, Lindsay, Nolan, and Spigs all were extremely wonderful that day and the next (I remember Amanda calling me when I was at IHOP the next day with Nolan lol, that made my day hun). My parents and Brett were fabulous and supportive as always, I couldn't ask for a better family. I talked to the faculty and I went in there and said "I don't want to hear why I got cut; what I want to hear is what you all think I should do now". They basically told me that I was viewed as a dancer-singer (and they mentioned a very strong dancer at that) and that I needed to be somewhere where I could excel seeing as the Musical Theater program was housed in a school where acting is the focus and singing and dancing are important but are secondary in the training. Plus, the more that I think about it, I don't see myself as a Shakespearian actress someday.
Yes it hurts and yes I have my ups and downs, but I'm ready to face a new challenge. That challenge is to work toward becoming a Dance major. I've already talked to Susan Quinn and I'm taking ballet, modern, pilates, and stretch/strengthening classes to get myself back in shape. I know that I have enough credits already to be at least a Dance minor, but if I could be a Dance MAJOR that would be incredible. UA's Dance program is top 3 in the country and I would feel honored to be trained by some of the best dance professors in the country. If that doesn't work out, then I'm gonna apply to be a BFA Fine Arts STudies major with emphasis in Theater, Dance, and Business. We'll just see where God takes me.....
On a good note, I'm doing a summer show in which I'm getting paid to do!! It's at Gaslight Theater and it's melodrama and an olio. They write their own shows and this one's called "Space Rangers 2025"; it's supposed to be a 50's futuristic Sci-Fi setting. Everyone there is a lot of fun to work with, especially the girl I'm understudying Sarah. She has been so great in mentoring me on "the ropes" and all. Unfortunately she has lost her voice so I've been going on for her in rehearsal and it's been tough, but I'm getting better everyday. Nolan and I went and saw the current show tonight and we cracked up. It was the most hilarious thing I've seen in a while, it made me really excited to be doing a show there as well. God I can't wait to perform again. If anyone wants to see the show give me a call and I'll give you the dates when I'm for sure going on!
So I have a jam-packed summer of rehearsals, shows, and dance classes, but I'm looking forward to it. I think I've written enough now (ya think?!?!) but I really am gonna try to keep this thing up now. Have a great night all!
<3 always,
Katie
"Holy spirit, be my guide; divine protection I know you'll provide."
I thought a new paragraph might be easier on the eyes cuz Lord knows I have a lot more to say tehehehe. Lindsay was my monologue coach and I started to feel super confident, my two monologues from Marsha's class were in excellent shape, all I could hope was that they would pick one of those two. My Chekhov monologue was okay, it was just so hard to get into since it was so short. I go into my monologue audition, what does Marsha pick for me my Chekhov monologue. My singing audition went pretty well too, I was proud of myself. My mom surprised me and drove down and saw my Chekhov showcase and all of my upperclassmen friends told me that I did a great job on my scene. I was feeling confident.
Then Friday the 7th came and it also happened to be my birthday. I go to get my letter, open it outside of the office, and read the words I was dreading.....I got cut after two hardass years of sweat and tons of work. I was heartbroken and began to panic. Happy birthday to me. Fortunately Trisha, Jon, Angie, Clay, Amanda, Lindsay, Nolan, and Spigs all were extremely wonderful that day and the next (I remember Amanda calling me when I was at IHOP the next day with Nolan lol, that made my day hun). My parents and Brett were fabulous and supportive as always, I couldn't ask for a better family. I talked to the faculty and I went in there and said "I don't want to hear why I got cut; what I want to hear is what you all think I should do now". They basically told me that I was viewed as a dancer-singer (and they mentioned a very strong dancer at that) and that I needed to be somewhere where I could excel seeing as the Musical Theater program was housed in a school where acting is the focus and singing and dancing are important but are secondary in the training. Plus, the more that I think about it, I don't see myself as a Shakespearian actress someday.
Yes it hurts and yes I have my ups and downs, but I'm ready to face a new challenge. That challenge is to work toward becoming a Dance major. I've already talked to Susan Quinn and I'm taking ballet, modern, pilates, and stretch/strengthening classes to get myself back in shape. I know that I have enough credits already to be at least a Dance minor, but if I could be a Dance MAJOR that would be incredible. UA's Dance program is top 3 in the country and I would feel honored to be trained by some of the best dance professors in the country. If that doesn't work out, then I'm gonna apply to be a BFA Fine Arts STudies major with emphasis in Theater, Dance, and Business. We'll just see where God takes me.....
On a good note, I'm doing a summer show in which I'm getting paid to do!! It's at Gaslight Theater and it's melodrama and an olio. They write their own shows and this one's called "Space Rangers 2025"; it's supposed to be a 50's futuristic Sci-Fi setting. Everyone there is a lot of fun to work with, especially the girl I'm understudying Sarah. She has been so great in mentoring me on "the ropes" and all. Unfortunately she has lost her voice so I've been going on for her in rehearsal and it's been tough, but I'm getting better everyday. Nolan and I went and saw the current show tonight and we cracked up. It was the most hilarious thing I've seen in a while, it made me really excited to be doing a show there as well. God I can't wait to perform again. If anyone wants to see the show give me a call and I'll give you the dates when I'm for sure going on!
So I have a jam-packed summer of rehearsals, shows, and dance classes, but I'm looking forward to it. I think I've written enough now (ya think?!?!) but I really am gonna try to keep this thing up now. Have a great night all!
<3 always,
Katie
"Holy spirit, be my guide; divine protection I know you'll provide."