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Why is it that once you get used to something in your life, suddenly things change and it throws you off again. Sometimes its good, sometimes its bad. I had a funny thought earlier today about how far in every aspect of my life i have come since 2 years ago. There have been really small, suddel changes that all have impacted how my life is now. My friends are always teaching me new things, or showing me what i should or shouldn't do from their mistakes and their successes. Simply, I am completely amazed at the life I am living now. Between working and going to school, aquiring new things that i have always wanted but have never had the money for, adjusting my relationship with my parents definately for the better, gaining knowledge of how to be an "adult", it just seems all I am doing is moving forward. It is the most amazing feelig in the world to feel accomplished and successful and get praised for it by my parents.
Somewhat recently was i think the first time my dad has ever said he is proud of me and really happy with how i am conducting my life in a long ass time. The whole problem with this situation is i know in my heart that something is going to come along and throw me off this prosperous track. I don't want to live with this notion that things are going to change and i am going to have to work myself out of yet another hole. It's probably my biggest worry right now. I guess i'll just roll with it and pretend that it wont happen. i hope it wont. With the last sliver of faith i have, i am trying to believe this time is different. i am not going to be a fuck up again. I am a strong enough person to have the disapline to keep myself from failure. i think i can.
"so i walked upon hi, and i stepped to the edge to see the world below,
and i laughed at myself, while the tears rolled down, c
ause its the world i know, its the world i know"
~i dont know the name of this band, but it is sure great 90's music
90's music always puts me in this inspiring mood; i wonder what happened to change that feeling in music that i used to get.
BALLS
Somewhat recently was i think the first time my dad has ever said he is proud of me and really happy with how i am conducting my life in a long ass time. The whole problem with this situation is i know in my heart that something is going to come along and throw me off this prosperous track. I don't want to live with this notion that things are going to change and i am going to have to work myself out of yet another hole. It's probably my biggest worry right now. I guess i'll just roll with it and pretend that it wont happen. i hope it wont. With the last sliver of faith i have, i am trying to believe this time is different. i am not going to be a fuck up again. I am a strong enough person to have the disapline to keep myself from failure. i think i can.
"so i walked upon hi, and i stepped to the edge to see the world below,
and i laughed at myself, while the tears rolled down, c
ause its the world i know, its the world i know"
~i dont know the name of this band, but it is sure great 90's music
90's music always puts me in this inspiring mood; i wonder what happened to change that feeling in music that i used to get.
BALLS