Doesn't Make Sense
So, there is someone that knows you extremely well. They know what you are really feeling if you try and hide your mood, they can just sense things about you, and they never got any of this wrong. They say they can read everything about you. Until one night, they get it completely wrong. And they seem hesitant like something isn't right because they keep asking the same questions over and over that they already know the answer to and you lie. And then all of a sudden like magic, they can't read you. How does that even happen? First time after all this years and you can't read my silence to mean I am unhappy? A tear falls down my face and you don't know I am crying?
Are they really missing it or are they choosing to ignore it for their own selfish gain? And why would they act surprised when you tell them how you really felt? Why would they think you would react in an opposite way they would react if you did the same to them? I can only imagine what they would think if the roles were reversed. Why would they brag about the details after you tell them no? Why would they say other hurtful things, letting you know they don't regret a thing, but then later turn around and act like they did regret it? Why act for my benefit? Why pretend to care how I feel now even though not long ago, you gave zero fucks about me? You didn't care about me. Not at all. It was all about you.
There are some people in this world that you would never think were stupid. Not in a million years. And then they surprise you by acting like a complete moron and and saying all the wrong things to make the situation worse. Just completely unbelievable. One of the smartest people I've ever known does one of the fucking dumbest things in the universe.
And here I am. Shattered confidence, low self-esteem, and broken in a million pieces. All because this entire time, I chose you and you chose yourself.
Are they really missing it or are they choosing to ignore it for their own selfish gain? And why would they act surprised when you tell them how you really felt? Why would they think you would react in an opposite way they would react if you did the same to them? I can only imagine what they would think if the roles were reversed. Why would they brag about the details after you tell them no? Why would they say other hurtful things, letting you know they don't regret a thing, but then later turn around and act like they did regret it? Why act for my benefit? Why pretend to care how I feel now even though not long ago, you gave zero fucks about me? You didn't care about me. Not at all. It was all about you.
There are some people in this world that you would never think were stupid. Not in a million years. And then they surprise you by acting like a complete moron and and saying all the wrong things to make the situation worse. Just completely unbelievable. One of the smartest people I've ever known does one of the fucking dumbest things in the universe.
And here I am. Shattered confidence, low self-esteem, and broken in a million pieces. All because this entire time, I chose you and you chose yourself.