New Year....new clarity?
So I'm not sure how many of you are stil out there that would get this on their friends page. I'm slightly embaressed of this journal. But at the same time I'm not embaressed of who I am and I guess this displays perfectly how I got there.
Things I have learned since the last new years post (2 years ago)-
Life isn't easy.
I've been through some tough shit the past few years. Happiness isn't a given. Its a gift and you should cherish it. The ife you have been delt despite all its flaws is beautiful even if you can't see it at this moment. A while from now you will look back and realize you were so terribly mistaken and what you thought were dark clouds were just the dawns of new beginnings.
If you want it, you have to work for it.
I coasted by in highschool. Basically I did everything by the seat of my pants and didn't really care where it took me. I finally have my direction in life. I finally understand whats important and what needs to be done. And I realize its not just going to fall into my lap like I thought it would. I'm going to have to fight tooth and nail for it. If its worth it then put in the effort.
Love.
I know love.I know how it feels to be loved unconditionally by another person. Despite my many flaws and drawbacks I know I am loved. Even if I have prickly legs and messy hair he'll still pull me in for a kiss and tell me I am beautiful. Even through times that were so hard I didn't think I would make it through and I dragged down those that loved me most, he still loved me, and he brought me up. We've grown up together these past years. The awkward boy I watched grow into an amazing man has completely stolen my heart. Even if things change and we part ways I know I could never regret this.
I've learned a couple other things through the past years but those have been the most important. The one I felt like needed to be recorded and shared with others. Hope you all had a happy new year!
<3
Things I have learned since the last new years post (2 years ago)-
Life isn't easy.
I've been through some tough shit the past few years. Happiness isn't a given. Its a gift and you should cherish it. The ife you have been delt despite all its flaws is beautiful even if you can't see it at this moment. A while from now you will look back and realize you were so terribly mistaken and what you thought were dark clouds were just the dawns of new beginnings.
If you want it, you have to work for it.
I coasted by in highschool. Basically I did everything by the seat of my pants and didn't really care where it took me. I finally have my direction in life. I finally understand whats important and what needs to be done. And I realize its not just going to fall into my lap like I thought it would. I'm going to have to fight tooth and nail for it. If its worth it then put in the effort.
Love.
I know love.I know how it feels to be loved unconditionally by another person. Despite my many flaws and drawbacks I know I am loved. Even if I have prickly legs and messy hair he'll still pull me in for a kiss and tell me I am beautiful. Even through times that were so hard I didn't think I would make it through and I dragged down those that loved me most, he still loved me, and he brought me up. We've grown up together these past years. The awkward boy I watched grow into an amazing man has completely stolen my heart. Even if things change and we part ways I know I could never regret this.
I've learned a couple other things through the past years but those have been the most important. The one I felt like needed to be recorded and shared with others. Hope you all had a happy new year!
<3