Dec 02, 2004 15:12
I don't understand why he does this, he purposely hurts himself and then blames me. Maybe if you stop sending people to question me you wouldn't get hurt, maybe if you stop pretending to be other people while tlaking to me you wouldn't get hurt. Maybe maybe maybe.
I'm not scared of you. I haven't done anything to hurt you recently. I tried being a friend you pushed me away i was there for you when you said everyone else didn't care, i still got pushed away, i got bleittled and i don't know if i can take the modd swings, one minute you like me the next im the most evil person you've ever known
Why do you do this to yourself. Why must you make so much drama for me when i haven't done anything. Yeah stupid shit has been said but im not the only one whose said it. least i don't call you names, nor do i yell at you anymore. Stop being petty and deal with the fact that you and i don't have anything anymore. stop trying to rip everything im crating for myself away from me. Im sick of having to explain to people who you are and what your doing. What are you scared of huh? i know it's not me, or is it? maybe cuase i put what we had in the past for ever, im never looking back at it again cause it's painful but what i learned is helping me know. Move on find someone else, if you met a girl while we were married and you liked her date her, if you let everything get in your way what are you ever going to accomplish why don't you stop fucking with my life and get on with your own, mine isn't that interesting and theres no reason for you to still be acting the way you are. Just becuase we haven't gotten a legal divorce doesn't mean we aren't already. you know just as well as i know. So stop with everything. If you want me out of your life doing what you are doing isn't gonna make that happen, If you continue with what you're doing i'll be in your life.
Stop blaming me for everything, everything i've been doing is becuase its what you decided would be easiest. then you saw i was happy and couldn't take it.
I.E. the divorce for one, we knew we were gonna do it but you wanted to wait until you got out of the military to do it becuase of the hassle you would have to go through i agreed. knowing we or atleast i was goning to see other people in the meantime.
you said you wouldn't go after anyone i was seeing for adultery becuase of what we had deicded on.
So lets see don't back down know, you've been doing it most of your life. why don't you actually do what you say you're gonna do. and stop lying to me.