AGGGGHHHHH
Ok so here i am writing in the pathetic thing of a journal, which im pretty sure only one person reads....
I'm frustrated beyond belief all i wanna do is sit and cry my little eyes out.
nothing is how i want it to be and my own husband rushes what little time we have together, Spends all his time talking to adam or playing city of heroes with him. Its really fucking annoying, I cussed haven't done that in a while.
Anyway. Im so sick of adam calling every five fucking minutes it's driving me insane. Im married to the guy and i barely get time with him it's really sad and really frutrating im so close to just giving up, and letting him do his own thing. no more pestering him being annoying nothing, but i love him and love spending time with him.
I can't deal with anything right now.
I'm so fed up with everything.
Lately he's been yelling at me and making little snyde comments to me comments my mom would usuually make to me. it's bugging me. that and when ever adam calls or his mom calls and they ask whats he doing he says nothing. And im sitting right next to him and where driving to go do something. Sometimes i feel like he's ashamed of me. maybe im not good enough to be part of his family. everything is getting to me and it's making me go insane. he's barely even touched me in the last couple days. he's being a realy jerk and i really can't take it anymore.
I'm so frustrated and irratated im ytelling at my own daughter and getting angry at her for nothing. this really sucks, and i want it to be better.
It still seems as if he doens't care the least unless im crying then he shows affection all other times he's doing something that can't invovle me in anyway. i really feel useless and i can't do anything right.
im so sick of being rushed with him and never having time alone with him and it's all just caving in
I don't want this anymore. i can't take anything thats thrown my way i feel so useless and unloved, my own daughter seems to hate me most of the time. i just wanna leave and never come back.
I feel like such crap. My own husband won't even try to make me feel loved or wanted half the time. im just here, just here to change diapers and feed the baby. and to clean up. thats all im fucking good for. I want to be part of his life, but he won't let nor does he want me to.
i've just had enough.
I'm frustrated beyond belief all i wanna do is sit and cry my little eyes out.
nothing is how i want it to be and my own husband rushes what little time we have together, Spends all his time talking to adam or playing city of heroes with him. Its really fucking annoying, I cussed haven't done that in a while.
Anyway. Im so sick of adam calling every five fucking minutes it's driving me insane. Im married to the guy and i barely get time with him it's really sad and really frutrating im so close to just giving up, and letting him do his own thing. no more pestering him being annoying nothing, but i love him and love spending time with him.
I can't deal with anything right now.
I'm so fed up with everything.
Lately he's been yelling at me and making little snyde comments to me comments my mom would usuually make to me. it's bugging me. that and when ever adam calls or his mom calls and they ask whats he doing he says nothing. And im sitting right next to him and where driving to go do something. Sometimes i feel like he's ashamed of me. maybe im not good enough to be part of his family. everything is getting to me and it's making me go insane. he's barely even touched me in the last couple days. he's being a realy jerk and i really can't take it anymore.
I'm so frustrated and irratated im ytelling at my own daughter and getting angry at her for nothing. this really sucks, and i want it to be better.
It still seems as if he doens't care the least unless im crying then he shows affection all other times he's doing something that can't invovle me in anyway. i really feel useless and i can't do anything right.
im so sick of being rushed with him and never having time alone with him and it's all just caving in
I don't want this anymore. i can't take anything thats thrown my way i feel so useless and unloved, my own daughter seems to hate me most of the time. i just wanna leave and never come back.
I feel like such crap. My own husband won't even try to make me feel loved or wanted half the time. im just here, just here to change diapers and feed the baby. and to clean up. thats all im fucking good for. I want to be part of his life, but he won't let nor does he want me to.
i've just had enough.