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Life has gotten a little less stressful:) I have come a long way since the post I made only visible to myself. I love Mike more than anything because he hugs, kisses and holds me with this heart. I am so very lucky. I lost the baby 4 weeks ago, I miss the feeling of something growing inside me and think about how I wish I were sick in the morning, which is almost crazy to wish but it meant that the baby was there. I wanted this baby so very much. It isn't like we go weeks without making love or hell even days. I know it is just a matter of when it happens again. I don't smoke or drink anymore and we are eating organic! I love California for this reason, life isn't easy and things are not cheap here but I really do like it here!! My job is awesome, I work for a CPA, 18 hours away from getting my BFA and I work for a CPA firm which isn't a bad thing. We are happy and life is gonna get better..