in this life u have to fend, for urself...like noone else would
hey. so today was a pretty boring day. just like everyday. i feel like everyday is exactly the same. i cant take it. i need change. good change tho..not bad change like wut happened today. today Coach told us how he can't coach us anymore, which i think is total bullshit. i totally agree with him that its much better for him if he doesnt coach, but its just so unfair. it really gets to me how sum ppl can be such BITCHES. seriously, they are just out to get other ppl and i cant take it. coach is a great coach. i dont care wut anyone else says. i no a lot of ppl dont agree with things he does, but he has helped us so much, and he has lead us to so man victorys its nuts, but sum fuck ups have to go and start shit and get on his case. seriously some people are just fucked up in the head. i feel really bad for coach bc those bitchass moms have to make him miserable...they sucked the fun out of it. but i guess hes right..."u cant always get wut u want" sumtimes in life u just gotta suck it up and realize that lifes not fair and u can't change that. i miss swimming. i miss being with all those girls and just having fun. i <3 crew but i dont want drama, i just cant take it.
drama drama drama lol
soooooooooooo ....i hope Michael Tolcher is right, and change is gunna happen to me. i mean, he was right about laura ;). i feel like this year i've changed so much. but since swimming i dont feel the effects of it anymore. i had so much PMF during swimming and i feel it just dying down. i guess cause reality is sinking in and im realizing that i only have about 3 months left here. i just booked my hotel and got my plane tickets for FSU orientation which is in less than 3 months! we have to pick out our classes at oriention...i dont even no wut i wanna do!! =( ugh...i wanted to leave so badly but i just don;t know nemore, i feel so confused. ugh, being a senior is so emotional lol. i need to just make up my mind, one day i cant wait to get out of here, then the next day im so scared and i dont wanna leave all my friends, and my room, and my bed, and my patchy =(. ugh i have so much on my mind i dont even no wut to say! i need the warm weather to be here, i think all the snow is getting to my head.....
well thats enuff for tonite, i dont wanna go all Nicholas Sparks on u guys.peace.
drama drama drama lol
soooooooooooo ....i hope Michael Tolcher is right, and change is gunna happen to me. i mean, he was right about laura ;). i feel like this year i've changed so much. but since swimming i dont feel the effects of it anymore. i had so much PMF during swimming and i feel it just dying down. i guess cause reality is sinking in and im realizing that i only have about 3 months left here. i just booked my hotel and got my plane tickets for FSU orientation which is in less than 3 months! we have to pick out our classes at oriention...i dont even no wut i wanna do!! =( ugh...i wanted to leave so badly but i just don;t know nemore, i feel so confused. ugh, being a senior is so emotional lol. i need to just make up my mind, one day i cant wait to get out of here, then the next day im so scared and i dont wanna leave all my friends, and my room, and my bed, and my patchy =(. ugh i have so much on my mind i dont even no wut to say! i need the warm weather to be here, i think all the snow is getting to my head.....
well thats enuff for tonite, i dont wanna go all Nicholas Sparks on u guys.peace.