its been awhile
So, here I am at work. I have a very intriguing project to work on but I think I might wait until tonight to do that. Doug is at an Elder's retreat tonight and Saturday so I have the apartment to myself. I think I am going to rent a movie and chill. It is a nice feeling to do nothing but be alone and design sometimes- I get more done. We have winter camp next week. I am praying that I can stop worrying about everything that can go wrong and just start being concerned about the kids going. I don't think I have ever been more excited about getting to know God. Our church is reading through the Bible this year and the encouragement from other people reading has inspired me to want to know Jesus even more. I realized that if you spend more time with other friends than you do with God what does that tell you about your friendship with the creator? I have seen how true friends will make it a priority to talk to you - the ones you always have to call or write they might care but clearly you are not a priority to them. I think God can feel the same way. It made me examine what kind of relationship I have with Him. If my marraige was like that I don't think it would have lasted a year. So with that and the growth that is taking place with girls I am mentoring- God is so exciting.
It was a bit rough earlier this year with the youth group- it always is when you invest in someone and they stomp on all that you put into the friendship. But what is perfect love if not unconditional. But just because you love them doesn't make it hurt any less. (or maybe I am still learning about love- if anything I have learned how selfish I am with trying to always love in marraige.)
I am going shopping tommorrow in Royal Oak with a girl from youth group. She reminds me alot of Rachel (when she was in highschool). Whitney (the youth group girl) is president of her class and has a desire to know God. She is much older than her years- not in every way but she knows what she wants from life. She doesn't know how to get it or how God wants her to accomplish it but I admire that she has these abstract grand goals. She is a fun person to hang out with and I am looking forward to it. I guess I am kind of mentoring her.
It was good to see my parents again last week. It seems like a decade ago. I miss them. I know my mom is having a hard time down there and that makes it worse.
I hope you all are doing well. I miss all of you alot. Happy New Year.
It was a bit rough earlier this year with the youth group- it always is when you invest in someone and they stomp on all that you put into the friendship. But what is perfect love if not unconditional. But just because you love them doesn't make it hurt any less. (or maybe I am still learning about love- if anything I have learned how selfish I am with trying to always love in marraige.)
I am going shopping tommorrow in Royal Oak with a girl from youth group. She reminds me alot of Rachel (when she was in highschool). Whitney (the youth group girl) is president of her class and has a desire to know God. She is much older than her years- not in every way but she knows what she wants from life. She doesn't know how to get it or how God wants her to accomplish it but I admire that she has these abstract grand goals. She is a fun person to hang out with and I am looking forward to it. I guess I am kind of mentoring her.
It was good to see my parents again last week. It seems like a decade ago. I miss them. I know my mom is having a hard time down there and that makes it worse.
I hope you all are doing well. I miss all of you alot. Happy New Year.