can't sleep
So doug has been in California this week at a national youth workers convention and he is coming back at the butt crack of dawn- I am really happy he is coming home- but also annoyed because I know I have to work late on Tuesday- wait, this is tuesday. I have also learned that I need to start hanging out with people above the age of 18. I love the youth- but if anything, I have learned that I can be their friend, but they can't necessarily be mine. There are somethings I can't share with them obviously, but I miss the friends to share it with. I have been getting closer to a girl at church- but she is in her second year at med school- so the occasions we do hang out are rare lately. I miss my nashville girls. I really want to go down there soon- but so far every single weekend is scheduled with youth activities.
I think I have gotten to a point where I haven't let my mind rest enough to be sufficiently creative. It was kind of cool tonight- I am trying to read something short before I go to bed to have something to focus on- I tend to dream about work lately- designing in your sleep just makes you even more tired when you wake up! So tonight I read in Philipians- probably my favorite book. And even though I have read what God asks us to think on- I just now saw that dwelling on the right things, pursuing contentedness, and actually asking God for help can restore whatever it is that has drained me. I think when I get to this point- lacking the ability to be creative or want to be- it is easy for me to get depressed. So I like that Paul said he had to learn to be content- its a process and a choice.
And another thing- not to be completely contradicting to the positive thinking- I never want to live near a train again. So when I go to buy a house and it is everything I ever wanted but near a railroad track- just remind me that no matter what- bad idea. And after a solid 3 minutes the whistle/foghorn has finally stopped. I will hear it in another hour. But then that is the cost for having a toyota plant work 24/7 to produce expensive cars for us to drive.
SO I guess I need to try and get some semblance of sleep. goodnight all, oh goodie, another train...
I think I have gotten to a point where I haven't let my mind rest enough to be sufficiently creative. It was kind of cool tonight- I am trying to read something short before I go to bed to have something to focus on- I tend to dream about work lately- designing in your sleep just makes you even more tired when you wake up! So tonight I read in Philipians- probably my favorite book. And even though I have read what God asks us to think on- I just now saw that dwelling on the right things, pursuing contentedness, and actually asking God for help can restore whatever it is that has drained me. I think when I get to this point- lacking the ability to be creative or want to be- it is easy for me to get depressed. So I like that Paul said he had to learn to be content- its a process and a choice.
And another thing- not to be completely contradicting to the positive thinking- I never want to live near a train again. So when I go to buy a house and it is everything I ever wanted but near a railroad track- just remind me that no matter what- bad idea. And after a solid 3 minutes the whistle/foghorn has finally stopped. I will hear it in another hour. But then that is the cost for having a toyota plant work 24/7 to produce expensive cars for us to drive.
SO I guess I need to try and get some semblance of sleep. goodnight all, oh goodie, another train...