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I guess you could say that not much has really happened this week...
Tuesday I hung out with Lauren and Emily. We watched "The Hills" and I gave Lauren her birthday present early and we talked. I also gave her a copy of Twilight to read because she said she wanted to branch out into different books haha. I also found out something that really upset me because I was looking forward to it since we never see each other. And it still stings. But there's nothing I can do about it.
Wednesday was Lauren's birthday and we all went to BD's for dinner. Afterwards we went to her house and ate cake and played Uno. It was fun, but I didn't really feel well. I was probably no fun because I was upset and sick, so sorry Lauren.
Thursday I went to see "Eclipse" with Jessica and Lauren. It was really good. And it was made better by Lauren's reactions to everything. We got there kind of late because I had an issue and the theater was really full. We had to sit in the second row because some dumb lady wouldn't scoot down one seat. I think the people around us wanted to kill us because we kept laughing so much. Oh well. I still had fun.
Lately I have been feeling like crap and I don't know why. It's a bummer because I was doing so well for so long and then all of a sudden I'm back to where I was. I can't really do anything because I don't feel comfortable going out. Like last night, we were supposed to go to the Mt. Clemens fireworks but since I wasn't feeling well I didn't go. I'm just fed up with being sick all of the damn time.
I am also fed up with this unnecessary tension between our friends. It's completely ridiculous and I feel like I'm back in high school. I really think that we should talk about it and get it out in the open, but I feel like nobody wants to. So the tension will sit there and fester and bubble and we'll resent each other and it'll feed into more tension and the cycle will continue because nobody wants to talk. But it's also difficult to talk to someone who won't return your texts or only calls you when she's upset and it's convenient for her to call you. I just feel like she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore, as evidenced by what I found out on Tuesday. And that really hurts because I thought we were such good friends.
Evidently I was wrong.
I just don't know what to do or say anymore because obviously everything I say and do is wrong and offends people and pushes them away.
But I hope that right now is the last time that I'm going to cry over this. I just can't do it anymore. But I've gone through lots of friendships in my short 21 years. Some of them weren't so good. Some of them were, and it was sad when they ended. I've gotten over them all. And I guess I'll get over this one in time, too.
Tuesday I hung out with Lauren and Emily. We watched "The Hills" and I gave Lauren her birthday present early and we talked. I also gave her a copy of Twilight to read because she said she wanted to branch out into different books haha. I also found out something that really upset me because I was looking forward to it since we never see each other. And it still stings. But there's nothing I can do about it.
Wednesday was Lauren's birthday and we all went to BD's for dinner. Afterwards we went to her house and ate cake and played Uno. It was fun, but I didn't really feel well. I was probably no fun because I was upset and sick, so sorry Lauren.
Thursday I went to see "Eclipse" with Jessica and Lauren. It was really good. And it was made better by Lauren's reactions to everything. We got there kind of late because I had an issue and the theater was really full. We had to sit in the second row because some dumb lady wouldn't scoot down one seat. I think the people around us wanted to kill us because we kept laughing so much. Oh well. I still had fun.
Lately I have been feeling like crap and I don't know why. It's a bummer because I was doing so well for so long and then all of a sudden I'm back to where I was. I can't really do anything because I don't feel comfortable going out. Like last night, we were supposed to go to the Mt. Clemens fireworks but since I wasn't feeling well I didn't go. I'm just fed up with being sick all of the damn time.
I am also fed up with this unnecessary tension between our friends. It's completely ridiculous and I feel like I'm back in high school. I really think that we should talk about it and get it out in the open, but I feel like nobody wants to. So the tension will sit there and fester and bubble and we'll resent each other and it'll feed into more tension and the cycle will continue because nobody wants to talk. But it's also difficult to talk to someone who won't return your texts or only calls you when she's upset and it's convenient for her to call you. I just feel like she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore, as evidenced by what I found out on Tuesday. And that really hurts because I thought we were such good friends.
Evidently I was wrong.
I just don't know what to do or say anymore because obviously everything I say and do is wrong and offends people and pushes them away.
But I hope that right now is the last time that I'm going to cry over this. I just can't do it anymore. But I've gone through lots of friendships in my short 21 years. Some of them weren't so good. Some of them were, and it was sad when they ended. I've gotten over them all. And I guess I'll get over this one in time, too.