Life moves on while sadness lingers...
Back to work today. Feels weird and good. I have an easy start though. This week I am working at the library closest to where I live. So it takes me about 5-10 mins to get to work, which is quite the difference how it’ll be later on... I wish I could work there all the time. I love the patrons there and the other librarians that work there. It’s an integrated library, meaning it’s both a regular library and a school library at the same time. And since I love working with both things, it would be perfect for me. Not to mention, Alexandra’s new daycare is in the neighboring house...
Nothing to be done about, I suppose. I know shit will hit the fan when I get back to the school library where I usually work. I have this week here (bliss), next week at a library outside of town (I haz the car), and the week after that... time to unpack the library I packed before I went on my summer vacation/holiday. AND plan and start up my anti-bullying project that I have a budget to use for.
Oh yeah. Back to work. With a vengeance. Can you tell?
It’s good that I keep busy though. If I’d been unemployed I would just have gone around thinking about Tashé constantly. I can’t help but wonder if she would still be alive if I’d been unemployed and able to talk to her more? Crazy thinking maybe and it’ll probably drive me crazy to, but I can’t help it.
Mom, my brother and his kids and spicehobbit came over to visit yesterday. It was good. I needed that, all them hugs and the love. It was nice. We took all the kids and went downtown to the big new playground there and let them lose. It was brilliant. If a bit hot. We have a bit of a heatwave here in Sweden currently, and you can definitely feel it. But the kids had fun, and I had cold drinks with me for everyone.
Then we went to grab a fika at a fika-place close by. While we were there... it started to rain. A lot. So we were quite wet once we got to the car. And after the drive up to our home and the run from the car at the parking lot? We were all soaked! *lol* But I had plenty clothes to hand out to everyone so no one had to walk around wet.
After that little adventure we had dinner and all the cousins played the afternoon away until it was time for them to leave. It was lovely. It really really was.
Week before that I spent 5 days with mom, including my birthday-weekend, so we got home this Wednesday last. She’d arranged a barbecue on my birthday and invited a few friends and neighbors.. and family... *smiles* *shakes head* She’s a bit nuts my mom, and she loves to arrange parties and get-togethers. It was a success though, and I did have a lovely lovely day. Days after the celebration was spent lazing around and also peting73 doing a mad dash back home and returning because he forgot his pain-meds (STUPID!) and me going out drinking and clubbing with my globetrotting cousin Mariell, who have since left to work at an insanely luxurious hotel at the Maldives again.
Good times were had, and I am trying to keep them in mind to ward off too much of the sadness I feel. It’s there, and it should. But I can’t drown in it. I have a family to take care of and be with after all.
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Nothing to be done about, I suppose. I know shit will hit the fan when I get back to the school library where I usually work. I have this week here (bliss), next week at a library outside of town (I haz the car), and the week after that... time to unpack the library I packed before I went on my summer vacation/holiday. AND plan and start up my anti-bullying project that I have a budget to use for.
Oh yeah. Back to work. With a vengeance. Can you tell?
It’s good that I keep busy though. If I’d been unemployed I would just have gone around thinking about Tashé constantly. I can’t help but wonder if she would still be alive if I’d been unemployed and able to talk to her more? Crazy thinking maybe and it’ll probably drive me crazy to, but I can’t help it.
Mom, my brother and his kids and spicehobbit came over to visit yesterday. It was good. I needed that, all them hugs and the love. It was nice. We took all the kids and went downtown to the big new playground there and let them lose. It was brilliant. If a bit hot. We have a bit of a heatwave here in Sweden currently, and you can definitely feel it. But the kids had fun, and I had cold drinks with me for everyone.
Then we went to grab a fika at a fika-place close by. While we were there... it started to rain. A lot. So we were quite wet once we got to the car. And after the drive up to our home and the run from the car at the parking lot? We were all soaked! *lol* But I had plenty clothes to hand out to everyone so no one had to walk around wet.
After that little adventure we had dinner and all the cousins played the afternoon away until it was time for them to leave. It was lovely. It really really was.
Week before that I spent 5 days with mom, including my birthday-weekend, so we got home this Wednesday last. She’d arranged a barbecue on my birthday and invited a few friends and neighbors.. and family... *smiles* *shakes head* She’s a bit nuts my mom, and she loves to arrange parties and get-togethers. It was a success though, and I did have a lovely lovely day. Days after the celebration was spent lazing around and also peting73 doing a mad dash back home and returning because he forgot his pain-meds (STUPID!) and me going out drinking and clubbing with my globetrotting cousin Mariell, who have since left to work at an insanely luxurious hotel at the Maldives again.
Good times were had, and I am trying to keep them in mind to ward off too much of the sadness I feel. It’s there, and it should. But I can’t drown in it. I have a family to take care of and be with after all.
This entry is crossposted between LJ and DW. Comment where you are comfortable.