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haha.... well ya i have nothing else to do my mom took the fuckin car... this is going to be like a real journal for me... when i was a little kid i had a journal and i threw it away cuz all i did in it was talk about how my life sucked ass....well ya i nkow no one will read these so ya i can write w/e the fuck i feel like writing in here... so umm ya my summer has been gay and good at the same time.... i've had a lot of ups and a lot of downs..... myspace seriously ruins lives..... its ruined my friendship with 1 person and it ruined my love for another..... it was because of my stupidity that all of this shit happened... but o well its too late to change anything anymore..... from next week i'm going to have a car just for me for awhile...... and ya that's going to be great....... well Alex isn't getting out of the hospital..... his mom is leaving the hospital on friday and they are going to bury Alex on Monday wow who the fuck has a funeral on fuckin monday.... but his mom is so nice though.... they were going to have the funeral at 12 but i couldn't make it cuz i have pierce class so she changed it to 2...... wow i'm going to miss him so much... i seriously don't want to go to the dam funeral cuz i don't want to see him being burried.....the only things in life that i wanted was for me 2 day before my bro, before Alex and before Walter..... and Alex is already gone.... and walter gets annoying at times so the only person that i have is my bro....... i seriously need a fuckin gf right now.... cuz i seriously need someone to just fuckin hold and hug and sit there with.... i don't even want to talk to her just to see her beautiful face..... a girl that i loev to be there for me an love me the same fuckin way.... its going to take me awhile to ever have a serious relationship ever again...but umm ya i pured my heart out and now i have no more heart.....i have no compation for anyone anymore the only people that deserve my compasion and my friendship are....... Walter, Babak, Shira, Nathan, Alex(RIP), Mehriar(my bro), Tina, Shivon(ya i talked to her, she's still in Iran), Jason, Liran, Alon Ryan(the drunk) and Ryan(cs bro).... and that's it i wish i had more friends than that but wut can u do?..... i was reading my bro's yearbook today and its scary cuz everyone is saying goodbye and shit and i'm afraid to graduate cuz i will not talk to most of my friends anymore :(..... ya its fuckin scary..... HAPPY B-DAY SHIRA..... HAVE FUN ON YOUR 17th B-DAY......... i hope u could of read this haha..... but don't worry i sent her a lot of happy b-day shit.... well thx for reading guys..... i hope i could tell that special someone how i feel about them.... its really wierd cuz i talk to her everyday now... she's someone new that i started to talk to after i havn't talked to for awhile.... but i'm afraid to tell her how i feel.... well once again thx for reading