you dont know the greatness you are
events of this past week and a half(ish) include the following:
moving in to my new dorm (which is awesome, by the by)
getting drunk, many a time
crying over the repressed and forgotten pain of being cheated on
getting emotionally and physically accosted by a drunk horny boy
being told that i wasn't wanted in a person's life anymore
being called a "female chouvenist" by my boss
getting accused of stealing money by my boss
this week has been a tough one with highs and a lot of lows. and i think i actually made it harder for myself in the end because i felt like my problems weren't as big as some of my roommates, and instead of dwelling on and dealing with the things that were troubling me, i wanted to be there for others and try to be happy and stay optimistic and keep thing goin. but that only lead to a nice breakdown one fine saturday afternoon that my roommates witnessed and were indeed and of course there for me through. i really appreciated that. i think i have the best roommates a girl can offer. just sitting on the couch, talking about nothing and everything at the same time, laughing and taking gangsta pictures, stealing cups from puzzles. it's gonna be a good year.
i had two really refreshing conversations within the past couple days. it really does feel so good to tell people how you're feeling and what's going through your head, and i'm glad that there are people around me that i trust and feel comfortable doing this with... i've been kinda closed up recently, and i dont quite know why. yet at the same time, i have had the urge to open up and tell everything to just, a comlete stranger. maybe i dont risk being judged as much, at least by someone who cares about me and i in turn, care about them and what they think ofme as a person.
while i do get really lonely when i walk out of class and realize i have no one to call and check up on, no one to have sent me a random text message, i know deep down that this is gonna be good for me. 4 years of attachment does a lot to a girl. at least, it does to me. while i claim to be so independent, in a way, i've been dependent on some guy for the last 4 years of my life. this next... however long it'll be that i'm single... is gonna teach me a lot about myself, however corny that may sound.
lots of regrets. lots of what ifs. but what can you do now? feel sorry in general... forever. feel sorry for yourself for a couple of days. learn the lesson. apply the lesson in future times.
tonight was awesome. minus the overall bad day at work, the night brought memories, and comfort.
moving in to my new dorm (which is awesome, by the by)
getting drunk, many a time
crying over the repressed and forgotten pain of being cheated on
getting emotionally and physically accosted by a drunk horny boy
being told that i wasn't wanted in a person's life anymore
being called a "female chouvenist" by my boss
getting accused of stealing money by my boss
this week has been a tough one with highs and a lot of lows. and i think i actually made it harder for myself in the end because i felt like my problems weren't as big as some of my roommates, and instead of dwelling on and dealing with the things that were troubling me, i wanted to be there for others and try to be happy and stay optimistic and keep thing goin. but that only lead to a nice breakdown one fine saturday afternoon that my roommates witnessed and were indeed and of course there for me through. i really appreciated that. i think i have the best roommates a girl can offer. just sitting on the couch, talking about nothing and everything at the same time, laughing and taking gangsta pictures, stealing cups from puzzles. it's gonna be a good year.
i had two really refreshing conversations within the past couple days. it really does feel so good to tell people how you're feeling and what's going through your head, and i'm glad that there are people around me that i trust and feel comfortable doing this with... i've been kinda closed up recently, and i dont quite know why. yet at the same time, i have had the urge to open up and tell everything to just, a comlete stranger. maybe i dont risk being judged as much, at least by someone who cares about me and i in turn, care about them and what they think ofme as a person.
while i do get really lonely when i walk out of class and realize i have no one to call and check up on, no one to have sent me a random text message, i know deep down that this is gonna be good for me. 4 years of attachment does a lot to a girl. at least, it does to me. while i claim to be so independent, in a way, i've been dependent on some guy for the last 4 years of my life. this next... however long it'll be that i'm single... is gonna teach me a lot about myself, however corny that may sound.
lots of regrets. lots of what ifs. but what can you do now? feel sorry in general... forever. feel sorry for yourself for a couple of days. learn the lesson. apply the lesson in future times.
tonight was awesome. minus the overall bad day at work, the night brought memories, and comfort.