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Yeah, I'm supposed to be in bed, but I don't feel tired. Call it Sunday blues, or PMS, or post-midnight-malfunction. Things on my mind; ridiculous thoughts that only dominates when loneliness and uncertainty pass through, when even the most trivial matter can scare the living daylights out of me.
Why so serious? Because I fear pain terribly, more than your average Australians (rofl).
My parents think I am very much friendless, and I think so too, even though I don't tell them.
All the things I don't tell now, I wonder if it's "right"/will work out in the long term.
Sometimes I feel uncomfortable about it, but that's just too bad, it's not like I would be better off otherwise, right?
Easter break was completely lazy. To be honest I think I only studied in my dreams, since I spent most of the time on the phailed hax server RebirthRO, tr0lling my bf <3. Nothing regrettable besides the lack of textbook reading, I enjoyed myself, been happy, of course, until the last day of holiday and then you realise you can never get enough of fun.
Now that I think about it, "I suck at facing reality" can sum up this entry pretty nicely?
Saa.
All this rubbish can probably be solved easily by a warm, comfy bed with huggable soft pillows, but I am too fucking M lol.
Good night <3
Why so serious? Because I fear pain terribly, more than your average Australians (rofl).
My parents think I am very much friendless, and I think so too, even though I don't tell them.
All the things I don't tell now, I wonder if it's "right"/will work out in the long term.
Sometimes I feel uncomfortable about it, but that's just too bad, it's not like I would be better off otherwise, right?
Easter break was completely lazy. To be honest I think I only studied in my dreams, since I spent most of the time on the phailed hax server RebirthRO, tr0lling my bf <3. Nothing regrettable besides the lack of textbook reading, I enjoyed myself, been happy, of course, until the last day of holiday and then you realise you can never get enough of fun.
Now that I think about it, "I suck at facing reality" can sum up this entry pretty nicely?
Saa.
All this rubbish can probably be solved easily by a warm, comfy bed with huggable soft pillows, but I am too fucking M lol.
Good night <3