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im so confused. i dont know where i wanna move. i know i cant stay at my gparents anymore and that blowzz but at the same time itll be good if i get away, grams drives me loco. im scared to move in with my dad, i feel like when i move in, my life stops. thats an awful way to feel because i really do love my family but i dont always wanna be taking care of them, and playing mom. speaking of mom...why cant she live without a man?!! shes back with the scum of the earth and i dont know whether to scream at her or back off and let her live her life. whatever. i wish i was rich and i could get my own place. but id have to quit school to maintain it or id have to get like 3 roomates so i could afford rent and go to school at the same time. where am i going to transfer to??? ughhh. this all sucks.the only thing great i have going for me is dan and a few friends, everything else makes me wanna punch a hole in the wall. i wish my family was normal. i need to stop worrying and focus on me. i need to get out of bdale and do something with myself.