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I had so many revolations today. I'm starting to get use to being up here in East Lansing. I was very unhappy for a little while maybe it was just because of everything happening. I just feel like everyone is getting know the person who is not me. Everyone says that its a good thing when you go away to college and get a clean slate a start over card. But since I've been up here everything just seems to not go my way. And since I dont have those friends that know me for me I cant just have someone be like " oh she just fucked up" and go on with their lives. Instead I get the "god I cant believe she is that way" because thats all they know. I miss my friends more than anything right now and I miss my mom. Sometimes I just want to go home and not deal with this whole college experience. I've been getting really down on myself and what I'm capable of. I feel so dumb being in James Madison I feel like I have to work so much harder than everyone else just to do ok. I did get a paper back today that I did relativly well on, so I feel better. But I'm just rambling on and on about shit that doesnt even matter.. oh well...
Play on player, its going to be a good night tonight.
Play on player, its going to be a good night tonight.