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So its been 27 days since brian and i broke up.... im still so heart broken. we text each other every once in a while and i talked to him today. i told him i wish he would just tell me he hates me, he doesn't love me anymore, and that he doesn't want to talk to me.... he said he cant do that.... i don't know what to do... i miss him. i miss him holding me, kissing me, and falling asleep holding me.. its just so hard. at night it is the worst. its hard getting used to sleeping by yourself again after 4 years of pretty much every night sleeping with someone. i know that i hurt him in the past but i was 18 and stupid... all i ever wanted was for us to be happy together... get married... have kids. and im so sick of everyone trying to give me advice on how to handle the situation (not you mary) it is between brian and i and everyone else needs to just stay out of it. anyway pretty much all i have been doing is hanging out with mary and getting drunk. as if it will make the pain go away... it wont but its all i feel like doing.... i dunno. well im off here