Missy ♥
I never post on here anymore. I was even going to delete this but right now Im glad I didnt.
Im a person who has a lot of close friends- and a few best friends. some of them I met in college, and some I've had for forever. Those friends would include Lindsey, who's mother is my mother's best friend, Misty, who I met in high school, and then Missy, who I also met in high school. We always thought it was funny their names were so similar- I call to one of them and they'd both turn around and say "what?"
not that that matters but I keep thinking about it. yesterday I found out Missy commited suicide. I could hardly believe it. I cant honestly...last time I talked to her was january 6th, to tell her happy bday and to say sorry I couldnt be there to party with her. she said it was fine and we'd make up for it next time I came home. now the next time Im going home will be for her funeral.
in september of 2008 one of my best friends from college died from cancer. so I've lost a best friend before....it was something I never wanted to happen again. ever. I go on missy's facebook page and stare at her profile picture, which is a picture of her and my friend who passed away back in one of our blue and white festivities. i stare at it and wonder how the hell this happened. things have been hard recently already, with another one of my best friends battling her own cancer battle and me being away from everyone. I think this just isnt supposed to happen. really. and why is it to everyone else around me and not me? even when I cause and accident on an icy road my baby sister almost dies, not me. I dont understand.
now I have to go back home and face the truth, say goodbye to another friend years before her time. and it makes me so god damn angry. I want to know why. I knew Missy wasnt happy- her life didnt go the way she had planned and she joked about it most of the time. I dont know why she did and, and I dont think I ever will. I'll never understand life. Im sorry to be so depressing. I just dont have anyone to talk to.
Im a person who has a lot of close friends- and a few best friends. some of them I met in college, and some I've had for forever. Those friends would include Lindsey, who's mother is my mother's best friend, Misty, who I met in high school, and then Missy, who I also met in high school. We always thought it was funny their names were so similar- I call to one of them and they'd both turn around and say "what?"
not that that matters but I keep thinking about it. yesterday I found out Missy commited suicide. I could hardly believe it. I cant honestly...last time I talked to her was january 6th, to tell her happy bday and to say sorry I couldnt be there to party with her. she said it was fine and we'd make up for it next time I came home. now the next time Im going home will be for her funeral.
in september of 2008 one of my best friends from college died from cancer. so I've lost a best friend before....it was something I never wanted to happen again. ever. I go on missy's facebook page and stare at her profile picture, which is a picture of her and my friend who passed away back in one of our blue and white festivities. i stare at it and wonder how the hell this happened. things have been hard recently already, with another one of my best friends battling her own cancer battle and me being away from everyone. I think this just isnt supposed to happen. really. and why is it to everyone else around me and not me? even when I cause and accident on an icy road my baby sister almost dies, not me. I dont understand.
now I have to go back home and face the truth, say goodbye to another friend years before her time. and it makes me so god damn angry. I want to know why. I knew Missy wasnt happy- her life didnt go the way she had planned and she joked about it most of the time. I dont know why she did and, and I dont think I ever will. I'll never understand life. Im sorry to be so depressing. I just dont have anyone to talk to.