Not so bad: It will be okay
Title: Not So Bad: It will be okay
Author: krystalkatz
rating: PG
Length: One Shot, Drabble
Genre: au, fluff, oc character death
Pairings: Aiba Masaki/Ninomiya Kazunari
Disclaimer: I only own the plot…
Nino gave a bitter smile at his twins who were doing their level best to sleep, tears were in his eyes and he knew that it wouldn’t be long before they were awake again asking if they could crawl into his bed. He wouldn’t deny them, not tonight and not in the coming days. Today had been hard on all of them but mostly for his children. Sighing he pulled on the black tie that was around his neck cutting off his breathing like a noose. The shirt he was wearing was three times too big but it had been a loan from the man that was currently tidying up his apartment. It seemed like a cruel and bitter joke, he had finally won Aiba…Or at the very least gotten him to date him while his ex-wife and her new husband had been killed on their honeymoon. After touching the quiet heads of his children he turned on his heel and went out into the main apartment.
Everything was almost already tidied away, with Aiba standing beside the sink his own white shirt rolled up to his elbows his hands in soapy water. Nino got the impression that on any other day the pre-school teacher would be humming or whistling a merry tune but as it was he was silent his eyes fixed on flowers that somebody had brought.
“Aiba…Um thank-you…I…”
“Are they asleep? Aiba asked turning around to look at him and Nino gave a small nod licking at his lips. They had had one date only in their relationship but since he had found out about his ex-wife’s death the man had been here every day staying until late at night and arriving early in the morning. It was more than anybody should have to take on when starting out in a relationship but Aiba never seemed like he was going to complain and Nino knew that he wouldn’t have been able to get through these last few days without him.
“For now…Um…I’m sorry that I left you to do it all again…” he whispered about to grab a hold of a tea towel but Aiba shook his head waving him away with a large but graceful hand.
“Nino-san…You should get some rest…I don’t mind doing this…Go, get some sleep while you can, I’m sure the twins will be awake before you know it…” Aiba suggested with a smile that didn’t really reach his eyes and Nino shook his head knowing that he wouldn’t be able to sleep. Each time he tried his mind just kept replaying the last time he had seen Mia and he wished that he could have paid more attention to her, to tell her that he’d never regretted the time that they had had together.
“No…Thank-you…Um…But could we…” Nino swallowed thickly twisting his fingers nervously in front of him as he asked in a strained voice “Do you mind talking?”
“Of course if you’d like should I finish…?” Aiba asked motioning to the few cups and plates that were still waiting to be washed. Ordinarily he wouldn’t leave them over night but right now he couldn’t be bothered to worry about them wanting somebody to talk to.
“No…We can leave them until tomorrow…I just…None of Mia’s family want to talk to me about her…If you don’t mind listening…”
“I don’t…Honestly I don’t…” Aiba smiled and before he had chance to say anything else Aiba was leading him into the living room and sitting him down in the sofa. It wasn’t a place that he normally sat but when Aiba came and sat beside him guiding him so he was laid against his body Nino decided that he could get used to sitting there. “So how did you and Mia-san meet?”
“We were childhood sweethearts…” Nino chuckled brokenly his mind going back through the years to when he and Mia were inseparable. “Sort of we grew up together in the same tower block our parents were friends so…It was only logical that we became friends too…And she was, even when we were fighting or arguing, my best Friend…At least…”
“Um may I ask…What happened?”
“I…convinced myself that I was in love with her…” Nino sighed slowly closing his eyes tightly happy to hear the gentle thud of Aiba’s heartbeat against his ear. “I…We got married straight out of school and then the twins were born right when I had figured out that I was gay…She blamed me for not knowing before or tricking her and we argued…”
“I’m sorry Nino-san…”
“We made up in the end…It was easier this last year with her new fiancé…It wasn’t the same as before and…We argued a lot on how the children were being raised but…As she said it wasn’t my place to say anything…I wasn’t even a weekend daddy…” He let out a shaky sigh his eyes filling with painful tears as he clutched at the white shirt the other man was wearing. He didn’t want to cry and embarrass himself like that but it was too late the tears were already slipping down his cheeks and chin “She was a brilliant mum…Even though I criticised her…She knew what she was doing…But now…Now…Somehow…I have to figure it all out…I’m not cut out for this, Masaki…I’m not…”
“All parents feel that way Nino-san…It is a truly scary experience even in normal circumstances…” Aiba told him gently his hand moving up and down up his back in very gentle spirals “But you aren’t alone…I will help you in any way you want I promise…
“Probably not what you thought you were signing on for when you agreed to go out with me only a few days ago…” Nino sighed with disbelief wondering how it could have only been a few days since that wonderfully weird date. Just one date and then the world had fallen out from underneath him, So much had happened since then that it was already starting to feel like Aiba had always been beside him.
“…I dunno! I’ve been falling in love with you for a long time, Nino-san…” Aiba whispered, surprising him out of his tears so much that he pulled himself out of the embrace to look at him honestly shocked to see only honesty in the man’s eyes “I don’t think that two adorable children are much of a deal breaker…But I wish that things hadn’t ended up this way for them…Or for you…But you are all they have now, you have to be strong for them and I'll be strong for you ne? I promise you Kazu that,even if it doesn’t feel like it now, or for a long time, things will be okay…”
“Thank-you…I…I needed to hear that…” Nino whispered leaning forward and pressing his wet lips very briefly against Aiba’s plump ones. It wasn’t much of a kiss but Aiba’s arms around him allowed him to believe in the truth of his words and he sighed his heart repeating them as he sank back down finally falling to sleep. Things will be okay.
THE END
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^
Author: krystalkatz
rating: PG
Length: One Shot, Drabble
Genre: au, fluff, oc character death
Pairings: Aiba Masaki/Ninomiya Kazunari
Disclaimer: I only own the plot…
Nino gave a bitter smile at his twins who were doing their level best to sleep, tears were in his eyes and he knew that it wouldn’t be long before they were awake again asking if they could crawl into his bed. He wouldn’t deny them, not tonight and not in the coming days. Today had been hard on all of them but mostly for his children. Sighing he pulled on the black tie that was around his neck cutting off his breathing like a noose. The shirt he was wearing was three times too big but it had been a loan from the man that was currently tidying up his apartment. It seemed like a cruel and bitter joke, he had finally won Aiba…Or at the very least gotten him to date him while his ex-wife and her new husband had been killed on their honeymoon. After touching the quiet heads of his children he turned on his heel and went out into the main apartment.
Everything was almost already tidied away, with Aiba standing beside the sink his own white shirt rolled up to his elbows his hands in soapy water. Nino got the impression that on any other day the pre-school teacher would be humming or whistling a merry tune but as it was he was silent his eyes fixed on flowers that somebody had brought.
“Aiba…Um thank-you…I…”
“Are they asleep? Aiba asked turning around to look at him and Nino gave a small nod licking at his lips. They had had one date only in their relationship but since he had found out about his ex-wife’s death the man had been here every day staying until late at night and arriving early in the morning. It was more than anybody should have to take on when starting out in a relationship but Aiba never seemed like he was going to complain and Nino knew that he wouldn’t have been able to get through these last few days without him.
“For now…Um…I’m sorry that I left you to do it all again…” he whispered about to grab a hold of a tea towel but Aiba shook his head waving him away with a large but graceful hand.
“Nino-san…You should get some rest…I don’t mind doing this…Go, get some sleep while you can, I’m sure the twins will be awake before you know it…” Aiba suggested with a smile that didn’t really reach his eyes and Nino shook his head knowing that he wouldn’t be able to sleep. Each time he tried his mind just kept replaying the last time he had seen Mia and he wished that he could have paid more attention to her, to tell her that he’d never regretted the time that they had had together.
“No…Thank-you…Um…But could we…” Nino swallowed thickly twisting his fingers nervously in front of him as he asked in a strained voice “Do you mind talking?”
“Of course if you’d like should I finish…?” Aiba asked motioning to the few cups and plates that were still waiting to be washed. Ordinarily he wouldn’t leave them over night but right now he couldn’t be bothered to worry about them wanting somebody to talk to.
“No…We can leave them until tomorrow…I just…None of Mia’s family want to talk to me about her…If you don’t mind listening…”
“I don’t…Honestly I don’t…” Aiba smiled and before he had chance to say anything else Aiba was leading him into the living room and sitting him down in the sofa. It wasn’t a place that he normally sat but when Aiba came and sat beside him guiding him so he was laid against his body Nino decided that he could get used to sitting there. “So how did you and Mia-san meet?”
“We were childhood sweethearts…” Nino chuckled brokenly his mind going back through the years to when he and Mia were inseparable. “Sort of we grew up together in the same tower block our parents were friends so…It was only logical that we became friends too…And she was, even when we were fighting or arguing, my best Friend…At least…”
“Um may I ask…What happened?”
“I…convinced myself that I was in love with her…” Nino sighed slowly closing his eyes tightly happy to hear the gentle thud of Aiba’s heartbeat against his ear. “I…We got married straight out of school and then the twins were born right when I had figured out that I was gay…She blamed me for not knowing before or tricking her and we argued…”
“I’m sorry Nino-san…”
“We made up in the end…It was easier this last year with her new fiancé…It wasn’t the same as before and…We argued a lot on how the children were being raised but…As she said it wasn’t my place to say anything…I wasn’t even a weekend daddy…” He let out a shaky sigh his eyes filling with painful tears as he clutched at the white shirt the other man was wearing. He didn’t want to cry and embarrass himself like that but it was too late the tears were already slipping down his cheeks and chin “She was a brilliant mum…Even though I criticised her…She knew what she was doing…But now…Now…Somehow…I have to figure it all out…I’m not cut out for this, Masaki…I’m not…”
“All parents feel that way Nino-san…It is a truly scary experience even in normal circumstances…” Aiba told him gently his hand moving up and down up his back in very gentle spirals “But you aren’t alone…I will help you in any way you want I promise…
“Probably not what you thought you were signing on for when you agreed to go out with me only a few days ago…” Nino sighed with disbelief wondering how it could have only been a few days since that wonderfully weird date. Just one date and then the world had fallen out from underneath him, So much had happened since then that it was already starting to feel like Aiba had always been beside him.
“…I dunno! I’ve been falling in love with you for a long time, Nino-san…” Aiba whispered, surprising him out of his tears so much that he pulled himself out of the embrace to look at him honestly shocked to see only honesty in the man’s eyes “I don’t think that two adorable children are much of a deal breaker…But I wish that things hadn’t ended up this way for them…Or for you…But you are all they have now, you have to be strong for them and I'll be strong for you ne? I promise you Kazu that,even if it doesn’t feel like it now, or for a long time, things will be okay…”
“Thank-you…I…I needed to hear that…” Nino whispered leaning forward and pressing his wet lips very briefly against Aiba’s plump ones. It wasn’t much of a kiss but Aiba’s arms around him allowed him to believe in the truth of his words and he sighed his heart repeating them as he sank back down finally falling to sleep. Things will be okay.
THE END
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^