Dusting off the pages again
Long time no write in here.
Life has changed.
A lot.
Short version: Life did its upheaval again. Danny, Stephen and I are now living with my parents in West Point, VA. Things are settling in nicely here, we got here on Feb 20, 2006. Danny has a job, technically PT, but is getting 40 hours a week. Will likely be officially FT after 90 days is up. I'm jobhunting for a PT job for spending cash in evenings, so that I can be ready to go ahead with school this fall. Stephen is continuing speech, and we're working on redoing his evaluations so we can hopefully get him classified in such a way as to put him in the pre-k special ed class for the social interaction and speech reinforcement he needs, and the school district down here is simply awesome. Long term plans for staying in this area are looking pretty good. We're actually so far being financially stable for once, and are finishing digging ourselves out of the financial hole we dug into in NY. Most of our small debts to family and friends are paid off. This is a good thing, and a wonderful feeling.
Otherwise, things continue to go pretty well. I've been reconnecting with my two best friends who also live down here that I was out of touch with the past 5 years or so during everything when i was preg with kiddo and all. It's a nice thing to have friends that call me to ask how I am and who reach out and care about me. I know I've moved a few times, but I've tried to maintain contact to anyone I was close to on LI, but sadly except for a few isolated cases, not much return effort has been made.
Emotionally I'm doing pretty well. I've come to terms and done alot of emotional growing up lately. I've come to accept and figure out a bit more of a balance between the part of me that wants time to be a 20 year old, and the parts of me that are forced to be a 30 year old due to being a mom and being the responsible parent in his every day life. Danny has been wonderful and has been getting more and more into a father role in Stephen's every day life, which is good because Stephen needs to know he has people that are there for him. Stephen actively refers to me and his D as his parents to anyone around. He's also stopped correcting people when they refer to Danny as his Dad instead of his D. I'm wondering how things are going to go in the long term with kiddo and staying in touch with his dad. I've been trying to keep in touch with him, but I haven't gotten any return interest really. No phone calls have been returned, not even a message left on D's cell which is still a 631 area code. I haven't had any IM's initiated by him either. Ah well. I'm here for kiddo, and so is D, and his grandparents down here too. I'm hoping his dad will be as well, but I honestly don't know how things will turn out. We bought him a season ticket to Busch Gardens so that when he visits kiddo down here they can go and kiddo can do some fun stuff with his dad too.
On another emotional note: How do you deal with it when there's someone who you don't want involved in your life at all because of painful memories and painful situations that were at least in part caused by that person is brought back into your life by becoming involved with someone with who you have an unseverable tie? I'm trying to figure it out, but all the actual info I can get from the party involved that I'm in contact with is vague answers that don't answer anything.
Ah well. Put in job apps at Walmart and Yankee candle so far. Hoping kinda for a call back from Yankee Candle. that would be a totally awesome job.
Tax fairy was good to us. Let us get a good start on paying off our debts, and do a few things for us. Did some much neede clothes shopping and I now own some clothes that fit. Budget is comfy enough to allow a new outfit or two as weight loss progresses and all. Outlet malls down here are excellent. :) Got a new laptop for me. This is the first system that is all mine brand new just for me. Feels good. Got is all set up for work and getting is set up for school. Still not sure wether I'll be starting this summer or this fall. Still not sure what I'm going into to do. Going to actually talk to a career counselor and hopefully come away with an idea or two. Need to get dental coverage somehow so I can get my teeth fixed. Will be working on that ASAP. Going to be applying for Medicaid for all of us and for Foodstamps as well, likely next week. Basically as soon as we have all the paper documentation that we need. Yes, the budget can buy food without the foodstamps, but if we qualify for them they will help so that a little bit more can go into savings, and thus help out with school expenses and saving for a house of our own. Tax fairy brought kiddo about $100 worth of Geotrax. We have a new shape setup about every day. :)
Anywho, long entry. Will be posting more often perhaps. Not sure even if anyone out there reads this old thing anymore. But hey, if you do, leave a comment on this entry just to say hey, would ya? Trying to update my friends list on here, and need an idea of who out of y'all read this thing..
Peace, love and naked gummy bears.
Kris
Life has changed.
A lot.
Short version: Life did its upheaval again. Danny, Stephen and I are now living with my parents in West Point, VA. Things are settling in nicely here, we got here on Feb 20, 2006. Danny has a job, technically PT, but is getting 40 hours a week. Will likely be officially FT after 90 days is up. I'm jobhunting for a PT job for spending cash in evenings, so that I can be ready to go ahead with school this fall. Stephen is continuing speech, and we're working on redoing his evaluations so we can hopefully get him classified in such a way as to put him in the pre-k special ed class for the social interaction and speech reinforcement he needs, and the school district down here is simply awesome. Long term plans for staying in this area are looking pretty good. We're actually so far being financially stable for once, and are finishing digging ourselves out of the financial hole we dug into in NY. Most of our small debts to family and friends are paid off. This is a good thing, and a wonderful feeling.
Otherwise, things continue to go pretty well. I've been reconnecting with my two best friends who also live down here that I was out of touch with the past 5 years or so during everything when i was preg with kiddo and all. It's a nice thing to have friends that call me to ask how I am and who reach out and care about me. I know I've moved a few times, but I've tried to maintain contact to anyone I was close to on LI, but sadly except for a few isolated cases, not much return effort has been made.
Emotionally I'm doing pretty well. I've come to terms and done alot of emotional growing up lately. I've come to accept and figure out a bit more of a balance between the part of me that wants time to be a 20 year old, and the parts of me that are forced to be a 30 year old due to being a mom and being the responsible parent in his every day life. Danny has been wonderful and has been getting more and more into a father role in Stephen's every day life, which is good because Stephen needs to know he has people that are there for him. Stephen actively refers to me and his D as his parents to anyone around. He's also stopped correcting people when they refer to Danny as his Dad instead of his D. I'm wondering how things are going to go in the long term with kiddo and staying in touch with his dad. I've been trying to keep in touch with him, but I haven't gotten any return interest really. No phone calls have been returned, not even a message left on D's cell which is still a 631 area code. I haven't had any IM's initiated by him either. Ah well. I'm here for kiddo, and so is D, and his grandparents down here too. I'm hoping his dad will be as well, but I honestly don't know how things will turn out. We bought him a season ticket to Busch Gardens so that when he visits kiddo down here they can go and kiddo can do some fun stuff with his dad too.
On another emotional note: How do you deal with it when there's someone who you don't want involved in your life at all because of painful memories and painful situations that were at least in part caused by that person is brought back into your life by becoming involved with someone with who you have an unseverable tie? I'm trying to figure it out, but all the actual info I can get from the party involved that I'm in contact with is vague answers that don't answer anything.
Ah well. Put in job apps at Walmart and Yankee candle so far. Hoping kinda for a call back from Yankee Candle. that would be a totally awesome job.
Tax fairy was good to us. Let us get a good start on paying off our debts, and do a few things for us. Did some much neede clothes shopping and I now own some clothes that fit. Budget is comfy enough to allow a new outfit or two as weight loss progresses and all. Outlet malls down here are excellent. :) Got a new laptop for me. This is the first system that is all mine brand new just for me. Feels good. Got is all set up for work and getting is set up for school. Still not sure wether I'll be starting this summer or this fall. Still not sure what I'm going into to do. Going to actually talk to a career counselor and hopefully come away with an idea or two. Need to get dental coverage somehow so I can get my teeth fixed. Will be working on that ASAP. Going to be applying for Medicaid for all of us and for Foodstamps as well, likely next week. Basically as soon as we have all the paper documentation that we need. Yes, the budget can buy food without the foodstamps, but if we qualify for them they will help so that a little bit more can go into savings, and thus help out with school expenses and saving for a house of our own. Tax fairy brought kiddo about $100 worth of Geotrax. We have a new shape setup about every day. :)
Anywho, long entry. Will be posting more often perhaps. Not sure even if anyone out there reads this old thing anymore. But hey, if you do, leave a comment on this entry just to say hey, would ya? Trying to update my friends list on here, and need an idea of who out of y'all read this thing..
Peace, love and naked gummy bears.
Kris