just take a look at all that time you took worrying about what is or isn't true
I killed my good updating streak. How sad. I'll have to fix that now because someone bought me a paid account and I'll feel bad if I don't update often enough. Plus they threatened me, the bastard.
I had an audition last week for a small guest appearance on a show and I didn't hear back from them till today. I didn't get the part, but that's alight. I don't really mind being rejected for things so much; it comes with the territory. The one thing I do hate is when I'm driving back to my apartment after an audition and they call me right then. Was I really so horrible that they decided against me as soon as I left the room? Or if I did get the part, what if they made too hasty of a decision and they don't really want me? What if they made a mistake and they picked the wrong person for the job? The worst feeling though is when you feel like you did the best audition of your life and they say "well, it wasn't exactly what we were looking for." It stings because you think you have this thing nailed, the characterization was perfect, you were that character. Then they tell you that nope, you were completely wrong for the part. You have to have some good self-esteem to survive this business.
Jeremy stopped by earlier this evening without calling but he came bearing Chinese food so I didn't complain. We chilled in my living room, joking around until It Factor came on. He had fun laughing at me when I couldn't pronounce "symbolic" on the show. During the commercial for next week's show I got to laugh at him as he had to chug slurpees and suffer brain freezes galore, so we're even.
We got fortune cookies with our food and usually they're somewhat uplifting but not these ones. Mine said "your life will never be graced with the presence of stardom" and Jeremy's said "you foolishly believe in the goodness of mankind". Usually cookies are supposed to make you less depressed, not moreso. We didn't talk for a while after that until Jeremy got up and went into my kitchen. He'd been in there for a couple minutes when he came back with a roll of tape in his hand and took my fortune from me. Sometimes Jeremy gets this focused look on his face and you know better than to ask questions (he reminded me of AJ a lot just then), so I just watched as he walked over to the doorway and taped my fortune next to the chain lock. He said "you keep that there until you prove it wrong" and he held up his own fortune and said he was going to do the same thing at his apartment. I couldn't think of anything to say after that so I sat there with him next to me and we ate what was left of our cookies and our dinner.
Kevin was on the show tonight. When he came on I was kind of surprised because at first all I saw was me hiding from something and I jumped out and there was Kevin. It seems like forever since then. It made me realize how long it's been since I've seen him and it gave me that extra initiative to get out there to NYC and see him, so I'll be calling him to figure out when it's a good time for me to go and see him and stuff. I still can't believe he's on Broadway. It seems so surreal, but then again everything about the entertainment business is like that I suppose.
I had an audition last week for a small guest appearance on a show and I didn't hear back from them till today. I didn't get the part, but that's alight. I don't really mind being rejected for things so much; it comes with the territory. The one thing I do hate is when I'm driving back to my apartment after an audition and they call me right then. Was I really so horrible that they decided against me as soon as I left the room? Or if I did get the part, what if they made too hasty of a decision and they don't really want me? What if they made a mistake and they picked the wrong person for the job? The worst feeling though is when you feel like you did the best audition of your life and they say "well, it wasn't exactly what we were looking for." It stings because you think you have this thing nailed, the characterization was perfect, you were that character. Then they tell you that nope, you were completely wrong for the part. You have to have some good self-esteem to survive this business.
Jeremy stopped by earlier this evening without calling but he came bearing Chinese food so I didn't complain. We chilled in my living room, joking around until It Factor came on. He had fun laughing at me when I couldn't pronounce "symbolic" on the show. During the commercial for next week's show I got to laugh at him as he had to chug slurpees and suffer brain freezes galore, so we're even.
We got fortune cookies with our food and usually they're somewhat uplifting but not these ones. Mine said "your life will never be graced with the presence of stardom" and Jeremy's said "you foolishly believe in the goodness of mankind". Usually cookies are supposed to make you less depressed, not moreso. We didn't talk for a while after that until Jeremy got up and went into my kitchen. He'd been in there for a couple minutes when he came back with a roll of tape in his hand and took my fortune from me. Sometimes Jeremy gets this focused look on his face and you know better than to ask questions (he reminded me of AJ a lot just then), so I just watched as he walked over to the doorway and taped my fortune next to the chain lock. He said "you keep that there until you prove it wrong" and he held up his own fortune and said he was going to do the same thing at his apartment. I couldn't think of anything to say after that so I sat there with him next to me and we ate what was left of our cookies and our dinner.
Kevin was on the show tonight. When he came on I was kind of surprised because at first all I saw was me hiding from something and I jumped out and there was Kevin. It seems like forever since then. It made me realize how long it's been since I've seen him and it gave me that extra initiative to get out there to NYC and see him, so I'll be calling him to figure out when it's a good time for me to go and see him and stuff. I still can't believe he's on Broadway. It seems so surreal, but then again everything about the entertainment business is like that I suppose.