For we know, that You will never leave us..
I wish I knew what I was going on in your life now. I've had to find out from others, or from your blog how you're doing and even through these channels, it obviously doesn't beat spending time with you and offering a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.
But, as much as I wish I was there for you, I guess it is also selfishness on my part too? I don't know. You know how there are quotes like, "Best friends are those whom you are able to not talk to for long periods of time, yet know that they still want the best for you"? I can't say I feel the same way about our friendship. I hope that I still mean something to you, or that at least you still are concerned about what's going on in my life.. But oh well. Of course, I can't say you're a best friend even though I did before. I can't confidently say that of anyone besides God anyway. We both are busy with our own lives, and even finding the time to catch up is hard when we have schoolwork and all to do. I know I've at least stopped feeling hurt, stopped crying over what our friendship has become, or how it has resulted in nothing. I thank God for the healing He has given to me though.
Through this episode back in June, I've also learnt how God must feel towards me when I find substitutes for Him as well, when I'm hurting but turn to other people rather than running into His open arms. Just as how I felt useless and sad that you didn't come to me when you were going through some rough times, yet still holding the hope that you one day would, God must have felt saddened that I didn't run straight to Him in times of my need but still hoped that I'd turn to Him..
God is with us
He will go before
He will never leave us,
He will never leave us..
God has really been good to me. I'm at peace because my God is with me. With the things He's been revealing to me gradually, learning more about both myself and God, how could I run away from this relationship? Of course, I'm still a work in progress and still learning bit by bit.. but with a Friend, Father, Prince of Peace, King of Kings like the one I have, I couldn't ask for better. Besides, as I shared with my youths today,
Yet to all who received [Jesus], to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God-- children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.
- John 1:12-13
Once I had received Jesus into my life and believed in Him, I will always be God's child. No matter what.
It just takes faith.
But, as much as I wish I was there for you, I guess it is also selfishness on my part too? I don't know. You know how there are quotes like, "Best friends are those whom you are able to not talk to for long periods of time, yet know that they still want the best for you"? I can't say I feel the same way about our friendship. I hope that I still mean something to you, or that at least you still are concerned about what's going on in my life.. But oh well. Of course, I can't say you're a best friend even though I did before. I can't confidently say that of anyone besides God anyway. We both are busy with our own lives, and even finding the time to catch up is hard when we have schoolwork and all to do. I know I've at least stopped feeling hurt, stopped crying over what our friendship has become, or how it has resulted in nothing. I thank God for the healing He has given to me though.
Through this episode back in June, I've also learnt how God must feel towards me when I find substitutes for Him as well, when I'm hurting but turn to other people rather than running into His open arms. Just as how I felt useless and sad that you didn't come to me when you were going through some rough times, yet still holding the hope that you one day would, God must have felt saddened that I didn't run straight to Him in times of my need but still hoped that I'd turn to Him..
God is with us
He will go before
He will never leave us,
He will never leave us..
God has really been good to me. I'm at peace because my God is with me. With the things He's been revealing to me gradually, learning more about both myself and God, how could I run away from this relationship? Of course, I'm still a work in progress and still learning bit by bit.. but with a Friend, Father, Prince of Peace, King of Kings like the one I have, I couldn't ask for better. Besides, as I shared with my youths today,
Yet to all who received [Jesus], to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God-- children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.
- John 1:12-13
Once I had received Jesus into my life and believed in Him, I will always be God's child. No matter what.
It just takes faith.