Lessons learnt.
I really have to thank God for my friends. Community honestly is so important. Just as long as we don't mix time fellowshipping with time alone with God. I've been feeling very far from God, not doing my quiet time and kind of not involving God with my life (although yes He's always there). Today helped me with that feeling. During worship, I can't remember when, but I suddenly cried. Maybe it was the lyrics or something, I can't really remember. But I only know that the tears were coming from my guilt for not living the way Jesus did for the past.. well. All I know is that it's been far too long.
But I can't keep doing this. I can't keep going through this cycle, being a Sunday Christian or sometimes not even. To cry during worship on Sundays, but eventually revert to my old ways. I don't like my easily agitated, irritable and incompassionate self when I lose sight of God's hand in my life.
Some of my friends responded to my previous post, and I have learnt new perspectives from their input. It's amazing how God lets different people have different experiences, so upon sharing, everyone can learn from one another - which helps me in another area: although I may not be immediately comfortable with mixing among those who have different backgrounds from mine, it is essential for growth of the persons involved, both ways.
If we reflect, we can constantly learn or get reminded of things that we forget or take for granted.
Never undermine the importance of community. Don't mix your professional life with your personal life.
Someone told me that my goal of changing myself isn't selfish, but my annoyance is.
That same person said, "Leading isn't easy. But sometimes following isn't, either."
But I can't keep doing this. I can't keep going through this cycle, being a Sunday Christian or sometimes not even. To cry during worship on Sundays, but eventually revert to my old ways. I don't like my easily agitated, irritable and incompassionate self when I lose sight of God's hand in my life.
Some of my friends responded to my previous post, and I have learnt new perspectives from their input. It's amazing how God lets different people have different experiences, so upon sharing, everyone can learn from one another - which helps me in another area: although I may not be immediately comfortable with mixing among those who have different backgrounds from mine, it is essential for growth of the persons involved, both ways.
If we reflect, we can constantly learn or get reminded of things that we forget or take for granted.
Never undermine the importance of community. Don't mix your professional life with your personal life.
Someone told me that my goal of changing myself isn't selfish, but my annoyance is.
That same person said, "Leading isn't easy. But sometimes following isn't, either."