like i'm not real.

[krysnthia]

maybe i took it as too huge a blow. i don't know what to think or do anymore, i'm just staring into black space and thinking of you. but whenever i think of you, i'll think of her, which just hurts me even more. i feel like crying but the tears just don't seem to flow.

angst is not my normal condition.

the common test is already starting, how can i keep thinking of you any longer?