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i would like to destroy something beautiful with my bare hands and marvel in the wreck that it has become because of me. I would like to single handly destroy all the hopes and dreams of every person whos destroyed mine in the least. I'd like to fuck the mother of emotions just because.
i fucking hate who i am. i fucking hate what i am. i fucking hate how i am.
and i fucking hate that you're not here.
and i fucking hate that i push the good things away because im too scared to even think about it. I hate that i sleep alone at night because im fucked in the head and ruin shit. I hate that i dont live this great amazing life. i hate that ... i hate that I am me. and I hate that hes too good for me. Because i say he is.
i fucking hate who i am. i fucking hate what i am. i fucking hate how i am.
and i fucking hate that you're not here.
and i fucking hate that i push the good things away because im too scared to even think about it. I hate that i sleep alone at night because im fucked in the head and ruin shit. I hate that i dont live this great amazing life. i hate that ... i hate that I am me. and I hate that hes too good for me. Because i say he is.