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Feeling really blah since I talked to my mother this evening. They just seem to get further and further away. Less and less like people I want anything to do any/thing with. Becoming more and more people I don't like and can't respect. Nothing like the disappointment from the people you thought would always be there for you. Again an instance where I expected people to do right thing, the thing I would do, and an wrong and disappointed. When did my mother and sister, two women I thought were strong turn into such scared and cowardly people? Where are the people I remember? One of those days where I seriously wonder how I came to be a part of this family, and if overwhelming physical resemblance etc weren't there then I might give more idea that I wasn't. Again wondering when I out grew my family. And so thankful that my chosen family is so strong when my biological one is getting weaker.