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I want you to talk to me. I want you to tell me that you're safe, that you're okay, that everything is fine. I need your assurance. I need to know that I can get through December. I need to know that I'm capable of handling New Years' Eve without you. I can't stop crying and you aren't here because I pushed you away. I'm so afraid. I don't want to go through this December.