HAPPY PRE-VALENTINES DAY!
Nothings bad. Except my hatred towards missing him. im afraid of losing him but i dont want to keep him. i wont rush him. thats how things turn sour. even writing these words put fear onto the paper. i blush and my arms go numb. he tells me i have that laugh, "but dont stop smiling" ...good becuz i cant. its stained on my face. a perminate imprint from the way he calls me seductive. i want to ask the question but im still tryin to figure that out for myself.
I keep his hands close aboard. i fear his eyes will fall apon someone else. hes the type to kiss in the rain, send the taste of metal up your legs and through ur spine as whispers paint blush onto your face. i quail at his prodigiuos being. his carvings put cockiness in me, a place where it has never been before. but hes still uncertin. its strange to see a man whos eyes wander be so low in cofidence.
i fear tomorrow. i brough up the worst last nite. im sick today and hope i feel better later. school is a pain in the ass. im tired of ppl but i fear being alone. maybe i will give up, drop out here and pick up someone else. disappear. hes leaving me soon ne ways and everyone seems to be done with me. u kno the feeling wen u look around and r best frd has decided to move on with her life without inviting u to come along. yea, i kinda just invite myself and then i turn into the person at the party who everyone is nice to but they whisper behind ur back "why is she here? she has no reason to be."
as long as they treat u good and u have fun then its ok. u cant forget about me as long as ur new frds are better then i ever was.
I keep his hands close aboard. i fear his eyes will fall apon someone else. hes the type to kiss in the rain, send the taste of metal up your legs and through ur spine as whispers paint blush onto your face. i quail at his prodigiuos being. his carvings put cockiness in me, a place where it has never been before. but hes still uncertin. its strange to see a man whos eyes wander be so low in cofidence.
i fear tomorrow. i brough up the worst last nite. im sick today and hope i feel better later. school is a pain in the ass. im tired of ppl but i fear being alone. maybe i will give up, drop out here and pick up someone else. disappear. hes leaving me soon ne ways and everyone seems to be done with me. u kno the feeling wen u look around and r best frd has decided to move on with her life without inviting u to come along. yea, i kinda just invite myself and then i turn into the person at the party who everyone is nice to but they whisper behind ur back "why is she here? she has no reason to be."
as long as they treat u good and u have fun then its ok. u cant forget about me as long as ur new frds are better then i ever was.