first world problems, boring shit etc
I really thought by the time I was almost 23 I would know what I wanted to do with my life. Or at least have a vague idea. But still nothing interests me. I have my first proper job interview tomorrow. I don't want it. It's some shitty admin job in Colindale. I didn't even apply for a job in Colindale. I applied for a job with the company in Whetstone but apparently it's now in Colindale. The job is shit but at least if it was in Whetstone it would be 15 min walk away. I shouldn't complain but I just wish I knew what kind of career I wanted. Then at least doing a shitty job for a while wouldn't be so bad because at least I would have some direction. And I get more and more depressed about fucking up university and the year abroad. I'm never going to have an experience like that again and I just threw it all away and now I can't stop thinking about it. I think about trying to do a year of work or something in the US or Canada but I don't know how realistic that is. Maybe.